I am crying for you. I know what it is like to be in a desperate spot and feel so lost. To look at that sweet face and not know what to do...I pray that it's not cancer. It won't be cancer. Go ahead and cry--don't hold it in. I had a terrible cancer scare with Bella over Thanksgiving. Waiting for the results of the biopsy--I couldn't think of anything worth living for if she were gone. That was before I found this forum. We are here for you and we will be strong for you. You and your precious babies are in our hearts