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Sending you prayers and peace-Simon you look lovely snoozing in the window-and watching the fishes-
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to the humans and smootches for Simon & Chestnut! Simon the Great! He has stolen many hearts here at TCS and will be remembered by all! [emoji]128149[/emoji]
Sending lots of love and peace to you and Simon!
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You guys are in my thoughts! Hoping you get another day with him!
As day drifts softly into night, I wrap my heart around you and Simon, and prepare to hold you close through the dark hours.
Waking up to that sweet face must have made your heart skip a beat - I know it would have mine.
What an amazing little fighter you have. And what an amazing mommy and daddy he has! If there was ever any doubt that you were meant to be with each other, I think this squashed any of those.
And now I'll stop before I start crying this morning. Will check back in this afternoon Thinking good thoughts for you all and sending lots of love.
What an amazing little fighter you have. And what an amazing mommy and daddy he has! If there was ever any doubt that you were meant to be with each other, I think this squashed any of those.
And now I'll stop before I start crying this morning. Will check back in this afternoon
Thinking good thoughts for you all and sending lots of love.
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Same-
Sending love and peace to you guys
Sending love and peace to you guys
Hope Simon is having a good day today. Thinking of you all.
just checking in.....(((hugs))) letting you know we are all here for you...
God bless all three of you!
Kisses to Simon and Chestnut. How is "our" boy?
Wondering that myself. Almost afraid to ask...
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Simon's Diary: "Our Bittersweet Journey...the long goodbye" last minutes.
My sweet boy Simon lost his battle this morning June 7th, 2016 sometime between 4:30-4:53am, My prayers were answered and he drifted off peacefully, paw in hand.
Monday June 7th - Yesterday was heartbreaking. Reality hit in the morning when my husband left for work and Simon couldn't walk him to the door. I held Simon in the hall as my husband left and prayed that my hubby would see him in the evening, if for nothing else, just to say goodbye.
Simon had lost all mobility and the look in his eyes was telling me the time was near. I gave him his Buprenex around 2 in the afternoon, put him on his dads chair, kept him comfortable, covered and gave him water and the homemade pedialyte every 20 minutes right up until bedtime.
At this point it wasn't to drink and keep him alive, it was more to keep his mouth wet, keeping him comfortable.
His mind was still sharp all day and when his daddy came through the door from work, his ears perked up and he jolted his body as if to catapult off the chair, but couldn't. Other familiar sounds last night also perked him up, but you could see as he'd perk up, he'd then realize moving wasn't possible. I could see a sadness, depression perhaps in his eyes. For the first time, it was a look I've never seen in his eyes.
I really think he was waiting for all of us to be together.
All afternoon, I kept telling him, if you give me a sign more can be done, let me know, I'll help, let me know. But all I could do was keep him comfortable with water, brushing's, massages and just talk to him softly.
In the evening around 9ish, I noticed this SCC/Cancer and eaten and taken more of his jaw and now, his tongue was disappearing. In a matter of 24 hours, again like last week, there was a noticeable difference within hours.
I made him his final blanket fort at 11:00pm and placed him in. He seemed as if he was trying to push out a bowel, so I took him to the litter box and held him up, but no go. He was like a marionette with broken strings. So back to the fort we went.
I'll admit, I was mentally exhausted. I usually read before bed, but couldn't even hold the book.
I just grabbed his paw and we stared at each other. I kept telling him "let go my Si Si - pronounced Sigh Sigh... again and again.
I said the prayer, Now I lay me down to sleep, over and over, and every time I got to the part, if I die before I wake, I just broke down and welled up feeling helpless, that's when Simon looked at me as if to say, "you can't help me anymore mommy". I held onto his paw, and fell asleep looking into his eyes.
Throughout the night strange dreams kept waking me up. And every time I woke up, he was still with us. I woke up around 4:20am, and at that point his heart was still beating. I fell out into a deep sleep only to be woken up by yet another strange dream, where we all had to get out... not sure where we were but we had to leave and fast. I woke up holding Simon's paw, but when I tugged on it, he didn't do "spread paw" and grab me back, I put my hand under his arm and didn't feel his heart beating. I turned up the light, and saw he was not moving. I checked again for his heartbeat but couldn't find it. He was still toasty warm, and when I put my ear to his mouth, I could hear gurgling. I picked him up and went to the sofa and just held him. I kept hearing sounds from his mouth, and his eyes were open staring back at me. I put him in the chair and laid down on the sofa and just pet him and held his paw until 7:55am, that was when the pads on his paws turned white and my sweet boy was cool. It was then I knew he has left me for good.
At that point, being in caregiver mode, I cleaned up all the towels to go into the laundry. Took Simon's litter box out of the bathroom and made room for Chestnut. Fixed her new eating area and an area for Chestnut in the window on the bed with a clean sheet, and I placed her there. She looked around to see if Simon was around being it was his spot, but then she settled in.
Chess was a bit off this morning and went up to his body, then scooted away. Last night, she laid on the floor and just looked up at him. I think she knew then.
Most of you told me that this would be hard, and as prepared as I was for this day, I'm so very sad. Even knowing he wasn't himself, I can't help but feel selfish wanting one more day.
Friday was the last day he was able to jump up and down hard like he used to. And not hearing his thud since then felt like he was already gone. I'm waiting for him to jump off the bed and make his grand entrance and grace us with his cuteness. It wasn't meant to be.
Below, Our Last Night...
Strangely, that is exactly the position Simon was in when he passed and hauntingly looks the same, minus the pink paws.
Right now, I have Simon lying on his favorite towel on the floor by the fish tank. His eye open as if he's taking one last look. I find it to be hauntingly peaceful, seeing him lying there so cozy and restful.
His body will be picked up this evening when my husband gets home. I couldn't do it alone. I'll head out and get a small box to keep him.
What can I say, he was my "special one". He came into my life after a miscarriage, all I wanted was a boy, then Simon appeared.
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Thank you all for your thoughts, prayers, well wishes and positive vibes.
You have all played a tremendous role throughout this journey in keeping Simon alive, helping me in moments of great doubt, giving me words of encouragement allowing me to step back, take a breath, and rethink my approach for tackling this debilitating disease attacking my sweet boy.
The advice given to me throughout this journey has been invaluable. Advice I will never forget and will remember if needed in the future.
@Marg
@mrsgreenjeens
@Red Top Rescue
@LotsofFur
@Artiemom
@Margret
@Donutte
@foxxycat
@MaggieMay
@Mamanyt1953
@nerdgirl5
@kittensmom
@Stewball
@Edwardthefirst
@mphscat
@mazie
@Abby2932
@Inanna
@Misty8723
@SheriT
@JennyR
@Loving Mickey
@Terri holly ivy
@Verna davies
I really can't thank you enough
Below, Simon, Deep in Thought
Below, That Face...
Below, Not a care in the world...
Simon's Journey, Has Ended
My sweet boy Simon lost his battle this morning June 7th, 2016 sometime between 4:30-4:53am, My prayers were answered and he drifted off peacefully, paw in hand.
Monday June 7th - Yesterday was heartbreaking. Reality hit in the morning when my husband left for work and Simon couldn't walk him to the door. I held Simon in the hall as my husband left and prayed that my hubby would see him in the evening, if for nothing else, just to say goodbye.
Simon had lost all mobility and the look in his eyes was telling me the time was near. I gave him his Buprenex around 2 in the afternoon, put him on his dads chair, kept him comfortable, covered and gave him water and the homemade pedialyte every 20 minutes right up until bedtime.
At this point it wasn't to drink and keep him alive, it was more to keep his mouth wet, keeping him comfortable.
His mind was still sharp all day and when his daddy came through the door from work, his ears perked up and he jolted his body as if to catapult off the chair, but couldn't. Other familiar sounds last night also perked him up, but you could see as he'd perk up, he'd then realize moving wasn't possible. I could see a sadness, depression perhaps in his eyes. For the first time, it was a look I've never seen in his eyes.
I really think he was waiting for all of us to be together.
All afternoon, I kept telling him, if you give me a sign more can be done, let me know, I'll help, let me know. But all I could do was keep him comfortable with water, brushing's, massages and just talk to him softly.
In the evening around 9ish, I noticed this SCC/Cancer and eaten and taken more of his jaw and now, his tongue was disappearing. In a matter of 24 hours, again like last week, there was a noticeable difference within hours.
I made him his final blanket fort at 11:00pm and placed him in. He seemed as if he was trying to push out a bowel, so I took him to the litter box and held him up, but no go. He was like a marionette with broken strings. So back to the fort we went.
I'll admit, I was mentally exhausted. I usually read before bed, but couldn't even hold the book.
I just grabbed his paw and we stared at each other. I kept telling him "let go my Si Si - pronounced Sigh Sigh... again and again.
I said the prayer, Now I lay me down to sleep, over and over, and every time I got to the part, if I die before I wake, I just broke down and welled up feeling helpless, that's when Simon looked at me as if to say, "you can't help me anymore mommy". I held onto his paw, and fell asleep looking into his eyes.
Throughout the night strange dreams kept waking me up. And every time I woke up, he was still with us. I woke up around 4:20am, and at that point his heart was still beating. I fell out into a deep sleep only to be woken up by yet another strange dream, where we all had to get out... not sure where we were but we had to leave and fast. I woke up holding Simon's paw, but when I tugged on it, he didn't do "spread paw" and grab me back, I put my hand under his arm and didn't feel his heart beating. I turned up the light, and saw he was not moving. I checked again for his heartbeat but couldn't find it. He was still toasty warm, and when I put my ear to his mouth, I could hear gurgling. I picked him up and went to the sofa and just held him. I kept hearing sounds from his mouth, and his eyes were open staring back at me. I put him in the chair and laid down on the sofa and just pet him and held his paw until 7:55am, that was when the pads on his paws turned white and my sweet boy was cool. It was then I knew he has left me for good.
At that point, being in caregiver mode, I cleaned up all the towels to go into the laundry. Took Simon's litter box out of the bathroom and made room for Chestnut. Fixed her new eating area and an area for Chestnut in the window on the bed with a clean sheet, and I placed her there. She looked around to see if Simon was around being it was his spot, but then she settled in.
Chess was a bit off this morning and went up to his body, then scooted away. Last night, she laid on the floor and just looked up at him. I think she knew then.
Most of you told me that this would be hard, and as prepared as I was for this day, I'm so very sad. Even knowing he wasn't himself, I can't help but feel selfish wanting one more day.
Friday was the last day he was able to jump up and down hard like he used to. And not hearing his thud since then felt like he was already gone. I'm waiting for him to jump off the bed and make his grand entrance and grace us with his cuteness. It wasn't meant to be.
Below, Our Last Night...
Strangely, that is exactly the position Simon was in when he passed and hauntingly looks the same, minus the pink paws.
Right now, I have Simon lying on his favorite towel on the floor by the fish tank. His eye open as if he's taking one last look. I find it to be hauntingly peaceful, seeing him lying there so cozy and restful.
His body will be picked up this evening when my husband gets home. I couldn't do it alone. I'll head out and get a small box to keep him.
What can I say, he was my "special one". He came into my life after a miscarriage, all I wanted was a boy, then Simon appeared.
*************************************************************************************************************
Thank you all for your thoughts, prayers, well wishes and positive vibes.
You have all played a tremendous role throughout this journey in keeping Simon alive, helping me in moments of great doubt, giving me words of encouragement allowing me to step back, take a breath, and rethink my approach for tackling this debilitating disease attacking my sweet boy.
The advice given to me throughout this journey has been invaluable. Advice I will never forget and will remember if needed in the future.
@Marg
@mrsgreenjeens
@Red Top Rescue
@LotsofFur
@Artiemom
@Margret
@Donutte
@foxxycat
@MaggieMay
@Mamanyt1953
@nerdgirl5
@kittensmom
@Stewball
@Edwardthefirst
@mphscat
@mazie
@Abby2932
@Inanna
@Misty8723
@SheriT
@JennyR
@Loving Mickey
@Terri holly ivy
@Verna davies
I really can't thank you enough
Below, Simon, Deep in Thought
Below, That Face...
Below, Not a care in the world...
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Oh! I am so very sorry to hear this!!! I knew it was coming, but it doesn't make it any easier. Know that Simon knew how much you loved him and cared for him til his last moments. You really really were there for him and I know he knew it. Rest in peace, dear Simon.
If you need anything at all, just ask! In the meanwhile, sending massive hugs and love!
If you need anything at all, just ask! In the meanwhile, sending massive hugs and love!
I am so sorry the dreaded time has come
Simon was the luckiest guy in the world to have you. He must have been so happy to have you there holding him during his last moments.
You will be in thoughts <3
Simon was the luckiest guy in the world to have you. He must have been so happy to have you there holding him during his last moments.
You will be in thoughts <3
However much one expects bad news, it is never easy. But you made Simon's journey as easy as it could possibly be for him; right to the end he was loved and knew it, he was able to stay in his beloved home, responding to the end to the familiar sounds and smells, and finally leaving as he held on to you in his sleep. No-one could ask for more.
I think, as this is such a special thread, that others will want to respond immediately, so I will leave it opne for another hour or two. Then I, or another mod, will close it, leaving it to you as to when you feel able to open a Bridge thread. Meanwhile my heartfelt sympathy goes out to you, even knowing that your beloved boy is at rest at last.
I think, as this is such a special thread, that others will want to respond immediately, so I will leave it opne for another hour or two. Then I, or another mod, will close it, leaving it to you as to when you feel able to open a Bridge thread. Meanwhile my heartfelt sympathy goes out to you, even knowing that your beloved boy is at rest at last.
I can barely type I'm crying so hard. I knew it was coming...soon. I feared when there was no update when I checked this morning that it had happened during the night.
What a wonderful way to go though, paw in hand, in his sleep. So very peaceful.
I am so sorry for your loss.
Run free, in a healthy body, dear sweet
Simon
What a wonderful way to go though, paw in hand, in his sleep. So very peaceful.
I am so sorry for your loss.
Run free, in a healthy body, dear sweet
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