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Its funny how some of them just eat into our hearts. And while it's hard to lose any pet I have found it easier when they have reached the end of their natural lifespan. For me it's when they are ripped away beyond my control with years of their lives to enjoy. She never knew a mean word. She went out in her Daddy's arms. Not the least bit afraid. I am thankful her sweet little soul slipped away quietly and with ease. She was not in a great deal of pain so we were able to have time with her.
Of course Mercy is not a replacement for Kitten...she fill yet another part of your heart. But you will never forget Kitten, how could you? I still think about my Nina, who's been gone now for over 25 years, and I still get teary eyed sometimes (she was my first dog as an adult). But I don't sob for her, I think of the wonderful times we had. This will come for you too, one day. This is how it is with Sven too, NOW. I think of him with wonderful memories and get all teary eyed.
I hope with each passage you write about Kitten, your pain begins to ebb. I know it's a slow process, as you know it too, but it does happen.
Until yesterday we had enough busy work to keep this at bay. Sunday was brutal. My husband cried for hours last night.
It's hard to believe now but when my hub wanted to keep Kitten as in inside pet I threw a fit. The last thing I wanted was animals in the house. Not my thing. He was walking to the door with her in his hand looking like the most brow beaten spouse ever. I relented and within three days you couldn't have pried her away from me. We had no idea how to take care of anything that young and small. I never bottle fed her. I put formula on my finger and fed her until she learned to drink it on her own. Kitten was fiercely independent and a big pudding all at the same time.
I'm laughing as the Mercy tries to engage Mook in play. Mook claims she doesn't play. I am thankful for the life happening in my home.My beautiful Mook. So sleek and panther like. Intense and the new baby who is so loving and needs me . It does fill a void. As I've said, the perfect kitten at the worst time. Which is probably better than the wrong cat at a better time. KWIM.
It is so hard to realize that but for relenting in the moment I would have cheated myself out of one of the most incredible experiences of my life.