People are cold! You just lost your dad! What do they expect? You aren't going to be down? That is ludicrist! Listen when we lost Marvin, I dealt with my grief, and also my six yr old sons! We went through the stages at totally different times, he stayed mad for about a yr. not me, I wasn't mad, after the 4 month of shock finally wore off of me, here it came down on me!
Anyway, we went to group meeting for support 2 yrs after his death. My son needed it and so they happened to have a class for adult at the same time, so I joined it! I was in there with others and one of the first questions they asked us was how long since the death of your love one? Everyone there was saying 2 weeks, 6 weeks, came around to me and I said, "2 yrs
" I know they all thought I was crazy, but it helped me, so much, even though I was still so distaught after 2 yrs.! So babydoll, you
take however long it takes you! It reminds me of when it was almost a yr. of his death, I decided to go back to beauty school to get my instructors liscense! I thought I wanted to teach it
and the instructor there told me a couple of times, "honey, you need to get over it and get on with
your life!"(because I was upset over Marvin) that hurt my feelings so bad! oh and I did get the hrs. I needed to go take my board, but I didn't realize it at the time, but whenever I sat down to study for it I couldn't remember anything, I was in the middle of grief, so
needless to say, I didn't ever go and get my liscense. Also one day I was suppose to go to the school and practice my finger waves.
My instructor said, "you are suppose to be working on your finger waves today!"
and I said, "You can't make me!" she said, "what I'm I going to do with you?"
I said. "You can't do anything with me!" and she said "you are going to have to teach them" well that made my mind up right then, I knew then I wasn't cut out to teach it! teaching all the old stuff, boring! I thought Yuck!!! Maybe I need to be the one that tries to change our state board examines!??
anyway, whomever said that to you, bless their heart! they don't have a
flippin clue! and just when you think your retarded, come back to my post and read it! I have not been able to remember anything since then! It's weird what it does to ya!
Take your time, we all love ya and care very much!! Don't forget that!!
I know one thing, I had never felt the hurt I felt during that time! It is undescripable! I will be praying for you!!!
oh and if you don't have insurance, and you start feeling bad you can always go to the ER, they can't turn you away!!! but I would go wherever someone else on here told you to go in Plano!!!
Take care and hold on sweet!!!