Aaah the emotional rollercoaster-I hate that ride! I have been on that one far too mant times in the last week and am still on it- I am sorry for the both of you. Have you tried a product called pill pockets? They are a soft treat with a hole in the middle to place the pill in, then it self seals and your cat thinks it's a treat and not the meds. Melody used to be on a ton of medicine-liquid used to work better but then she caught on and it turned hellacious. After discovering pill pockets I will NEVER use a liquid medicine again. I give her a few "decoy" treats and then the one with the pill in it and I have never had pill giving go easier. Give them a try, they are found here in Colorado through your vet,Petsmarts and some local smaller pet boutiques. If you can not find any I would also be more than happy to mail some to you.