Baby, here’s the memorial you should’ve gotten long ago. Last month marked you being gone for a year. A year since that horrible day I found you laying in your favorite tote bed outside my bedroom window. I had originally been going to clean it, get the blanket clean again. It was heavy… I reached in.. and felt your body. You were so cold.. so stiff already. I pulled you out and cried like a baby. I had to go to the dentist after that…When we took your body to the woods and let your little one say goodbye, I told her you were in a better place with no more pain. She seemed to understand.We had to burn that tote… Don‘T worry, your baby has a new one. One with straw. She seems happy with it. Your last memory was me pushing you away. You laid at that door for hours until I went to bed. I know you did. I’m so sorry, sweetheart. My mom wouldn’t let you come in. She knew you were dying and she didn’t want my other cats to get sick too. You didn’t deserve to die alone. I hope all you remember is the love. I loved you, so much. Your daughter had her first litter in June. You would have been so proud of her. She’s such a great mama, just like you. I miss you. I miss your clinginess. I miss that purr. I don’t even have any pictures, my darling. I wish I did. But, oh well. You were the best kitty.Until we meet again, your faithful servant, Canaan Sammandriel Lumienarien.