I'm not insane totally maybe after this! She is 1 of 5 of my purrbabies and is going on 3 I feed them well and have all become very voluptuous and we've been half joking and half kinda concerned/perplexed at how much fatter she has gotten not so much that ya'll would go oh she pregnant in comparison ok I'm rambling but I'm panicking. I have calls into vets and 1 online ve vet called back and said that likely 1 of her tubes were missed or failed. She started acting odd about 2 hours ago would not stay off of me and she came into the bathroom with me just insisting that I have my hands on her then on top of me panting and licking I put her down and she kept getting and trying to get on top of my feet and reality sink in a few minutes later I was rushing around to gather comfort and necessary items and get her and stuff to quiet secluded room and she turned a few circles and ran crying along side me I came back to get ipad and saw the dead kitten, fluids and goop where my feet were on the floor. I got her all set up and went to make warm water bottle and she was at the door waiting for me I walked over to the bed I mad and she ran over climbed on and demands that I keep my hands on her. Where do I go from here? I of course live all but I care about her first and foremost and I know this sounds awful but I don't think I can deal with the other issue I covered it and out a box over it and hope that my husband will help shortly after he wakes up, for her sake does she need it gone or does she need to come back to it and mourn. Also, her siblings are freaking out wanting in with her and also weirded out and aware of said issue