I just wanted to see if I am the only chicken in the world at my age. I am 30 and I am still afraid to be home alone over night. If I am home alone overnight I will stay up all night in the front room couch, all the lights on with possible weapons near by.
I am pretty sure the reason for this is I am painfully aware of all the bad things that happened everyday in the world, I am aware that there are lots of bad guys/girls out there. With all the horror flicks I have watched and a decade of researching serial killer psychology, watching true crime shows, etc I am not in the dark of horrible people. So now when I am alone I get really, really scared to the point where I am sore the next day for being so tense (LOL still the same as when I was younger)
I never knew this until I moved in with my boyfriend. I have had big dogs all my life, the smallest being a 70 lb German Shepherd. We had dogs that were scary to look at (Pitt/Lab, Rottie, Shepherd along with my uncles Dobermans sometimes) so it made me feel safe. The fact that if someone did break in my dogs would have probably gave them a thousand kisses didnâ€[emoji]8482[/emoji]t concern me, it was their look that made me feel safe.
Knowing this my boyfriend never leaves me alone and if he has to he calls all the time, but he just accepted a new job where he will be on call every second week overnight. So it made me realize even more how chicken I am LOL. BTW we are getting a dog (Iâ€[emoji]8482[/emoji]m sure you all will hear about that soon, with pics!), so that problem is fixed but I just wanted to see if I was the only person who freaks out when home alone?
I am pretty sure the reason for this is I am painfully aware of all the bad things that happened everyday in the world, I am aware that there are lots of bad guys/girls out there. With all the horror flicks I have watched and a decade of researching serial killer psychology, watching true crime shows, etc I am not in the dark of horrible people. So now when I am alone I get really, really scared to the point where I am sore the next day for being so tense (LOL still the same as when I was younger)
I never knew this until I moved in with my boyfriend. I have had big dogs all my life, the smallest being a 70 lb German Shepherd. We had dogs that were scary to look at (Pitt/Lab, Rottie, Shepherd along with my uncles Dobermans sometimes) so it made me feel safe. The fact that if someone did break in my dogs would have probably gave them a thousand kisses didnâ€[emoji]8482[/emoji]t concern me, it was their look that made me feel safe.
Knowing this my boyfriend never leaves me alone and if he has to he calls all the time, but he just accepted a new job where he will be on call every second week overnight. So it made me realize even more how chicken I am LOL. BTW we are getting a dog (Iâ€[emoji]8482[/emoji]m sure you all will hear about that soon, with pics!), so that problem is fixed but I just wanted to see if I was the only person who freaks out when home alone?