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It's been almost two weeks since I lost my sweet, one of a kind Rico. Luckily I still have his buddy Aniki. But I am now consumed with worry over Aniki's health. He has no outstanding issues, and you can bet I am going to take him to the doc soon for a complete wellness check, but I can't shake the feeling that either the vet will find a problem or that one will develop in a few months.
I tell myself this might be a part of the grieving process for Rico, and therefore it's unreasonable to expect Aniki to get sick so soon...but then I remember that Aniki is 16 and a half, which makes the likelihood of him developing age-related disease that much greater. When I look at him, all I can think is 'Please don't get sick please don't get sick please don't get sick". I dread going through what I've just gone through with Rico so soon. Rico was TRULY a special cat and it's going to take me a while to get over losing him. I fear having to compound my grief with the horror that Aniki, too, may be approaching his last days.
Aniki was a bottle baby, so he thinks I'm his daddy and mommy all rolled into one. He's handicapped as well so he's incredibly clingy and basically still a kitten at 16. He will be just as hard to lose as Rico if not moreso: he's my last cat. I won't have the buffer of a remaining animal to comfort me after he passes and I can't get another one because he has behavioral issues and I wouldn't trust him with a newcomer.
This is complicating my grieving process for Rico. There are feelings of fear and worry for Aniki over my deep sadness for Rico and sometimes it's unbearable. Has anyone else been in this position? What has helped you?
It doesn't help that I have severe OCD and tend to magnify and obsess over problems like this.
Thank you for reading!
I tell myself this might be a part of the grieving process for Rico, and therefore it's unreasonable to expect Aniki to get sick so soon...but then I remember that Aniki is 16 and a half, which makes the likelihood of him developing age-related disease that much greater. When I look at him, all I can think is 'Please don't get sick please don't get sick please don't get sick". I dread going through what I've just gone through with Rico so soon. Rico was TRULY a special cat and it's going to take me a while to get over losing him. I fear having to compound my grief with the horror that Aniki, too, may be approaching his last days.
Aniki was a bottle baby, so he thinks I'm his daddy and mommy all rolled into one. He's handicapped as well so he's incredibly clingy and basically still a kitten at 16. He will be just as hard to lose as Rico if not moreso: he's my last cat. I won't have the buffer of a remaining animal to comfort me after he passes and I can't get another one because he has behavioral issues and I wouldn't trust him with a newcomer.
This is complicating my grieving process for Rico. There are feelings of fear and worry for Aniki over my deep sadness for Rico and sometimes it's unbearable. Has anyone else been in this position? What has helped you?
It doesn't help that I have severe OCD and tend to magnify and obsess over problems like this.
Thank you for reading!