I'm just so bummed. It's been one of those weeks where everything is either stressing me out or making me a nervous wreck. It all started on Saturday when my Dad and I got into a very heated screaming match. It was over something really stupid and it turned into calling names & hurting each others feelings. He point blankly told me that he doesn't want me living with my parents anymore. He told me that I do nothing to help around the house (I disagree...I do more than anyone even realizes) and he doesn't want his free loafing daughter in his house anymore. Those words hurt so badly...but in a response I called him a drunk and if I had a choice I wouldn't be living there because I can't stand him. I regret those words, but his words really hurt me. He is a truck driver is only home every 10 days and when he is home is only home for 2 or 3 days. He has no idea what I do around the house and how much I do for them. I don't pay rent, but I give them money when they are tight on money...plus I always buy the toothpaste, pick up some groceries, buy shampoo & conditioner...and those kinds of things. I never ask them to buy them...I just always do. But yet I don't contribute? So, I've been trying to find an apartment but everything is out of my price range. I should be able to find a descent apartment this summer when I finally pay off my car. Until then, it probably won't be able to happen.
So on top of all of this, Dad started a new job on Monday. He called tonight saying he ended up having an accident (he wasn't hurt...thank God!) and he lost his load on his truck. He will most likely get fired over this since Dad said it was his fault. Mom is upset and she's got a lot on her mind these days too.
Work is driving me crazy and I'm ready to just quit...but I can't and I won't.
Then on top of it all, my BF called me Monday morning and said "We need to talk about our relationship". That is usually a sign that he's breaking it off...just like last year. Our relationship is pretty rocky right now. He lives in Chicago and I live in Nebraska. We see each other once every 2 or 3 months. We used to talk at least 4 times a week...now it's once every week if I'm lucky. We've got personal issues that complicate everything on top of it all. I'm ready to throw in the towel in this relationship...but to be honest, I'm just scared of being alone...but I guess I'm already alone.
I'm just so sad right now. I just want to cry until I can not cry anymore. All of this crap is hitting me all at once and just don't think I can handle it all. I feel like I'm having a nervous breakdown or something...I just can not go on like this.
Thank you everyone for just listening to me. I just needed to get some of this off my chest. Thanks for listening to me ramble on about the stupid things that are happening in my life.
So on top of all of this, Dad started a new job on Monday. He called tonight saying he ended up having an accident (he wasn't hurt...thank God!) and he lost his load on his truck. He will most likely get fired over this since Dad said it was his fault. Mom is upset and she's got a lot on her mind these days too.
Work is driving me crazy and I'm ready to just quit...but I can't and I won't.
Then on top of it all, my BF called me Monday morning and said "We need to talk about our relationship". That is usually a sign that he's breaking it off...just like last year. Our relationship is pretty rocky right now. He lives in Chicago and I live in Nebraska. We see each other once every 2 or 3 months. We used to talk at least 4 times a week...now it's once every week if I'm lucky. We've got personal issues that complicate everything on top of it all. I'm ready to throw in the towel in this relationship...but to be honest, I'm just scared of being alone...but I guess I'm already alone.
I'm just so sad right now. I just want to cry until I can not cry anymore. All of this crap is hitting me all at once and just don't think I can handle it all. I feel like I'm having a nervous breakdown or something...I just can not go on like this.
Thank you everyone for just listening to me. I just needed to get some of this off my chest. Thanks for listening to me ramble on about the stupid things that are happening in my life.