Sabrina, I'm so glad you know you can talk freely to us here, and I hope you'll always let us be here for you... but honey, we are not enough.
You are profoundly depressed. The level of effort you're having to put forth just to get through a day is superhuman. It's not supposed to be this hard.
You need help. And I completely understand your need to control exactly what kind of help and from whom and for how long -- it's part of the massive weight of anxiety you're carrying around.
But Sabrina, at this moment, you are your own worst enemy. Your sense of responsibility is causing you to actually stand in the way of the help you so desperately need.
This is not something you can fix by yourself, and the effort to do so is only making things worse for you, sweetheart. Please... tomorrow, look at the options in your area and choose someone to place your trust in. And I hope you'll choose a psychiatrist, because I believe medication will need to be part of your recovery, at least for awhile.
And once you've chosen someone, let go of the reins and let that person do the job. You've had to be in charge of so much for so long -- it's time to let someone else carry just this part of the load for you.
Oh, please do this. With your contacts in the medical field, I'm sure you can identify someone with an outstanding reputation, and I hope you can get in quickly on an emergency basis.
And I do think this is an emergency, sweetheart. You can't go on like this... and you don't have to. Please, please make an appointment tomorrow?
You are profoundly depressed. The level of effort you're having to put forth just to get through a day is superhuman. It's not supposed to be this hard.
You need help. And I completely understand your need to control exactly what kind of help and from whom and for how long -- it's part of the massive weight of anxiety you're carrying around.
But Sabrina, at this moment, you are your own worst enemy. Your sense of responsibility is causing you to actually stand in the way of the help you so desperately need.
This is not something you can fix by yourself, and the effort to do so is only making things worse for you, sweetheart. Please... tomorrow, look at the options in your area and choose someone to place your trust in. And I hope you'll choose a psychiatrist, because I believe medication will need to be part of your recovery, at least for awhile.
And once you've chosen someone, let go of the reins and let that person do the job. You've had to be in charge of so much for so long -- it's time to let someone else carry just this part of the load for you.
Oh, please do this. With your contacts in the medical field, I'm sure you can identify someone with an outstanding reputation, and I hope you can get in quickly on an emergency basis.
And I do think this is an emergency, sweetheart. You can't go on like this... and you don't have to. Please, please make an appointment tomorrow?