I've known for a really long time that one of the reasons that Adrian and I aren't together is because he still has feelings for his ex-girlfriend... He admitted to me that he still loves her but he swore that he didn't want to be with her anymore... Knowing him as well as I do, I didn't believe that... and last night only proved it to me... Let me back track to a few weeks ago... She asked him to send her a letter telling her how he felt about her... so, he did... he told her that he still had a desire for her... He still loved her... etc... well, she wrote him back and told him that he couldn't possibly still love her because he didn't truly know her... she is a different person from the girl that he fell in love with.... She admitted that she was young, immature and naive when they started dating and she agreed that she still is but she's different now... She also told him that she had gotten over him a long time ago, that she was with her current boyfriend now and he is the only one in her heart... He wouldn't admit it to me but I know that it hurt him and he still tried to make excuses for her... He said that people she trusted were telling her things about him and she didnt believe him when he told her the truth... I told her that if she truly loved and trusted him, nothing they would say would change her mind about him...
Anyway, a week went by and she apparently broke up with her boyfriend... No sooner did she break up with him she was trying to hang out with Adrian... Wanting so badly to have her be a part of his life, he jumped at the opportunity.. again not admitting it to me... Well, I figured it out for myself that they hung out this Thursday... That night he called me and told me that he wished I had been with him that day because he had a really bad day... I asked what happened and he told me that he met his ex in the city, they went for lunch and he ended up walking out on her... I asked if it was Melissa and he lied and said it was a different ex-girlfriend but I know that it was her... He just wouldn't admit to me that Melissa had hurt him so badly... He didn't want me to know that I had been right about her all along... Well, she told him that he would always be alone, he would never have anything solid or anything to cherish because he was too cold-hearted and distant... That hurt him because he's beginning to feel that way about himself... He feels like he's emotionless and dead inside and she took the one insecurity he has and crushed him with it... I explained to him that anyone who would say that to him, clearly doesnt know him, as I do... and doesnt deserve to be in his life...
Anyway... I spoke to my friend, Susan, wednesday night before he hung out with her and I told her that Melissa was young, immature and naive and all she was trying to do is manipulate him because she has the power over him to hurt him and she's a hurtful person... I told her that I guaranteed that this girl was going to pull him in and then crush him, again... and I predicted that the second she did he would run to me and look to me to be the one to pick up the pieces of his heart for him... Well, little did I know, that would happen a lot sooner than I had anticipated...
Last night, we were talking online and he said he was sleepy and he was gonna go lay down... I told him that if he couldnt sleep, I'd still be there... He put up his away message and layed down.... about 20 minutes later I noticed him take his away message off, then put it back, then take it off again... he kept doing that for a few mins so finally I said "what are you doin? LoL" and he started babbling about how he hates her and she turned her back on him, etc. I called him and he explained to me that she had come online and told him that he didn't mean anything to her and her boyfriend was the most important person to her and she didn't want any communication with him anymore because her boyfriend was uncomfortable with it... So, I told him that she didn't deserve him in the first place and she doesnt deserve him as a friend because she doesn't realize how wonderful and special he is... He just kept saying "F" her... I dont care... Never again will I let anyone get that close to me again... I dont want to be with anyone... I'm thru... I spent hours with him on the phone, listening to him cry and trying to make him understand that I know how he feels and I've been there and that time will heal the pain he feels...
I just feel so terrible for him because I know how it feels to love someone with everything you have, to give your heart, mind, body, and soul to someone and have them not love you the same way in return... I know how that feels because that is how I feel about him... and it's tearing me apart to hear him say that love is a joke when I know that I love him more than anything in the world and I would and have given everything to share my love with him... He was finally starting to realize that the way he feels about love wasn't right and she just set him back further than he was before... and she's made my job, of trying to make him realize how precious his love is, that much harder...
I just pray that the pain he feels fades quickly...
I
you, Adrian...
Anyway, a week went by and she apparently broke up with her boyfriend... No sooner did she break up with him she was trying to hang out with Adrian... Wanting so badly to have her be a part of his life, he jumped at the opportunity.. again not admitting it to me... Well, I figured it out for myself that they hung out this Thursday... That night he called me and told me that he wished I had been with him that day because he had a really bad day... I asked what happened and he told me that he met his ex in the city, they went for lunch and he ended up walking out on her... I asked if it was Melissa and he lied and said it was a different ex-girlfriend but I know that it was her... He just wouldn't admit to me that Melissa had hurt him so badly... He didn't want me to know that I had been right about her all along... Well, she told him that he would always be alone, he would never have anything solid or anything to cherish because he was too cold-hearted and distant... That hurt him because he's beginning to feel that way about himself... He feels like he's emotionless and dead inside and she took the one insecurity he has and crushed him with it... I explained to him that anyone who would say that to him, clearly doesnt know him, as I do... and doesnt deserve to be in his life...
Anyway... I spoke to my friend, Susan, wednesday night before he hung out with her and I told her that Melissa was young, immature and naive and all she was trying to do is manipulate him because she has the power over him to hurt him and she's a hurtful person... I told her that I guaranteed that this girl was going to pull him in and then crush him, again... and I predicted that the second she did he would run to me and look to me to be the one to pick up the pieces of his heart for him... Well, little did I know, that would happen a lot sooner than I had anticipated...
Last night, we were talking online and he said he was sleepy and he was gonna go lay down... I told him that if he couldnt sleep, I'd still be there... He put up his away message and layed down.... about 20 minutes later I noticed him take his away message off, then put it back, then take it off again... he kept doing that for a few mins so finally I said "what are you doin? LoL" and he started babbling about how he hates her and she turned her back on him, etc. I called him and he explained to me that she had come online and told him that he didn't mean anything to her and her boyfriend was the most important person to her and she didn't want any communication with him anymore because her boyfriend was uncomfortable with it... So, I told him that she didn't deserve him in the first place and she doesnt deserve him as a friend because she doesn't realize how wonderful and special he is... He just kept saying "F" her... I dont care... Never again will I let anyone get that close to me again... I dont want to be with anyone... I'm thru... I spent hours with him on the phone, listening to him cry and trying to make him understand that I know how he feels and I've been there and that time will heal the pain he feels...
I just feel so terrible for him because I know how it feels to love someone with everything you have, to give your heart, mind, body, and soul to someone and have them not love you the same way in return... I know how that feels because that is how I feel about him... and it's tearing me apart to hear him say that love is a joke when I know that I love him more than anything in the world and I would and have given everything to share my love with him... He was finally starting to realize that the way he feels about love wasn't right and she just set him back further than he was before... and she's made my job, of trying to make him realize how precious his love is, that much harder...