Thank you, it was horrible and one of the hardest things that I ever had happen to me in my life and messed me up mentally for awhile, but he is just fine now, I will see him again someday but I kind of see him everyday (and Simon too) when I look at Sylvester who is a perfect blend of those two great boys put together, Sebastian's long black hair and Simon's tuxedo look.That is awful, I'm so sorry that happened to Sebastian. I am doing my best to remember the good memories we had on the couch rather than his last moments. I guess you are right that the only thing that will make it better now is time.
In time it will not bother you, you will remember it but you will control it not the other way around.