I don't mean to unload on you guys but I am seriously depressed right now.
My FIL said no to loaning us ANY money, and when I told my mom today that I might have to borrow some money from my dad she got VERY upset with me. Pretty much told me I'm screwed. They just came back from Italy a few weeks ago and are saving to go again in March. My rent is due on the first, and we don't have it. My landlord's are somewhat understanding but I know they won't let us slide. DH is going to work for a fellow contractor tomorrow and hope he'll make something (more then the usual $50). My oldest son's birthday is Dec 6th and I don't think I'll be able to do anything for him..the child support I get for him tomorrow is going straight to the truck payment and electric. DH is hounding me to work but I cant because there was a mix-up at the daycare and they say I owe them $500 which I don't have. He keeps making comments like "Don't blame this on me" and "Why did you let us get so far into debt?"
I'm sitting here literally in tears because of all this. I know I can't afford Christmas for them and all the agencies I've contacted are telling me the sign up date was 2 weeks ago. I don't know how we're going to make it. I can't sell this stupid kayak for the life of me.. even after going down $100 in price. I have my stereo on craigslist but no one wants it.
I feel like I've let my whole family down..My kids, my husband, my parents... everyone. I don't feel like putting up any Christmas decorations because I have a feeling we're going to be evicted and won't be able to afford anything for the kids. I know Christmas is about family and spending time together but you can't explain that to a 5 and 9 year old.
I'm sitting here crying and feeling completely hopeless. I just want to give up on everything. It's like my world is crashing down around me. I've heard "things will get better" a million times but it's just getting worse and worse.
Our last resort is asking DH's aunt who is a VERY wealthy and GREEDY woman and we're almost positive she'll say no. I just don't know how much more I can take before having a nervous breakdown. I can't be strong all the time.
I'm usually the backbone for this family but I can't be anymore.
Sorry to unload on ya'll but I am SOO scared right now!
My FIL said no to loaning us ANY money, and when I told my mom today that I might have to borrow some money from my dad she got VERY upset with me. Pretty much told me I'm screwed. They just came back from Italy a few weeks ago and are saving to go again in March. My rent is due on the first, and we don't have it. My landlord's are somewhat understanding but I know they won't let us slide. DH is going to work for a fellow contractor tomorrow and hope he'll make something (more then the usual $50). My oldest son's birthday is Dec 6th and I don't think I'll be able to do anything for him..the child support I get for him tomorrow is going straight to the truck payment and electric. DH is hounding me to work but I cant because there was a mix-up at the daycare and they say I owe them $500 which I don't have. He keeps making comments like "Don't blame this on me" and "Why did you let us get so far into debt?"
I'm sitting here literally in tears because of all this. I know I can't afford Christmas for them and all the agencies I've contacted are telling me the sign up date was 2 weeks ago. I don't know how we're going to make it. I can't sell this stupid kayak for the life of me.. even after going down $100 in price. I have my stereo on craigslist but no one wants it.
I feel like I've let my whole family down..My kids, my husband, my parents... everyone. I don't feel like putting up any Christmas decorations because I have a feeling we're going to be evicted and won't be able to afford anything for the kids. I know Christmas is about family and spending time together but you can't explain that to a 5 and 9 year old.
I'm sitting here crying and feeling completely hopeless. I just want to give up on everything. It's like my world is crashing down around me. I've heard "things will get better" a million times but it's just getting worse and worse.
Our last resort is asking DH's aunt who is a VERY wealthy and GREEDY woman and we're almost positive she'll say no. I just don't know how much more I can take before having a nervous breakdown. I can't be strong all the time.
I'm usually the backbone for this family but I can't be anymore.
Sorry to unload on ya'll but I am SOO scared right now!