I know that a post like this is likely not welcome here, and I will probably get flamed.
I adopted a cat two days ago. At the time I went to visit him I wasn't sure I wanted to adopt him. But I went ahead with the adoption anyway.
Since he's been with me, I haven't felt joy. I feel incredibly trapped, helpless, and depressed. I feel like he will be hurt by my behavior because he will feel he isn't loved. I just find myself feeling horrible, wishing I hadn't adopted him. I don't know why I'm feeling this. I know this isn't normal.
I don't have a lover or partner to help me with these feelings. My life in general has not been what I wanted it to be. I don't know why I adopted him when my life wasn't ready for him in it.
I feel horribly guilty and I feel I've made a huge, huge mistake. I don't want to feel this way. I want to be happy with him and my days filled with joy. Instead I am feeling more miserable than I have in months. Last night I was crying. I have had thoughts about returning him to the woman who originally took him in. If I did so, she would likely be very angry and look down on me for not taking care of him.
I feel like it's not good for him to stay with me if I'm not going to give him all the love and attention he deserves. He's a very affectionate cat and someone in the right frame of mind would adore him. He's FIV positive as well which is stressing me out in other ways, even though I thought it didn't matter.
I'm feeling really upset over these feelings. I hate that I'm feeling this. But I'm just feeling incredibly depressed and hopeless.
I adopted a cat two days ago. At the time I went to visit him I wasn't sure I wanted to adopt him. But I went ahead with the adoption anyway.
Since he's been with me, I haven't felt joy. I feel incredibly trapped, helpless, and depressed. I feel like he will be hurt by my behavior because he will feel he isn't loved. I just find myself feeling horrible, wishing I hadn't adopted him. I don't know why I'm feeling this. I know this isn't normal.
I don't have a lover or partner to help me with these feelings. My life in general has not been what I wanted it to be. I don't know why I adopted him when my life wasn't ready for him in it.
I feel horribly guilty and I feel I've made a huge, huge mistake. I don't want to feel this way. I want to be happy with him and my days filled with joy. Instead I am feeling more miserable than I have in months. Last night I was crying. I have had thoughts about returning him to the woman who originally took him in. If I did so, she would likely be very angry and look down on me for not taking care of him.
I feel like it's not good for him to stay with me if I'm not going to give him all the love and attention he deserves. He's a very affectionate cat and someone in the right frame of mind would adore him. He's FIV positive as well which is stressing me out in other ways, even though I thought it didn't matter.
I'm feeling really upset over these feelings. I hate that I'm feeling this. But I'm just feeling incredibly depressed and hopeless.