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Soon it will be 3 weeks and I still cry every single day... I really can not see this ending soon.... I feel so sad. Does it always hurt so long....
I'm so sorry. it will get better. The day will come when memories of him will make you smile instead of cry. You gave him a wonderful life full of love and friendship. Every cat should be so lucky as to have someone like you to love them and care for them. Hang in there. it will get a little better day by day. You have to give yourself time to grieve.
Soon it will be 3 weeks and I still cry every single day... I really can not see this ending soon.... I feel so sad. Does it always hurt so long....
I tend to steer clear of threads as this one, I have felt such loss and try to spare myself drudging up the memories of how terrible the pain is.............
Soon it will be 3 weeks and I still cry every single day... I really can not see this ending soon.... I feel so sad. Does it always hurt so long....
It's human nature, we all do the very same. It's more weeping for ourselves if you think about the bottom line of it, but that's how we're wired, and it's okay!
Thanks all. I just realized why it pains me so much... my cat took the role of my partner, my friend and my pet. He was everything to me in last year in my life. We were far away from my friends, family last 5 months, even from my partner. He was just the only rock, a steady rock that I could come close to and I knew why I was returning home for... It sucks, but yeah, I agree. He did not cry or fear death. It is all me... mine issues and acceptance of loss
Krissy is so beautiful. Yes, that is exactly it. They were/are there when we go through the good, the bad and the ugly, they rarely question our decisions and trust us without reservations, that is why it is so hard to lose them, because we feel like we could have/should have done everything that is in our power to save them, but sometimes it is just impossible to do it for whatever the reason, sometimes those reasons might be banal.
I have a cat like you describe too, Krissy. (avatar pic)
I have had her since the very day she was born, in a very dark time of my life.
I think you know in your heart that he was gone. Please put that picture in a safe place for now that is out of sight. It won't help you right now. You're not ready to look at it. Hold onto a toy he loved or something that when you look at it, you can't help but smile because it makes you think of all the wonderful times you shared.
I am at the bottom last two days and need to vent a bit...
I keep rethinking the moment I saw him with his purple tongue out of the mouth, my neighbour seeing his eyes wide open, his body limpless and then my partner closing his eyes, burying him some 6 hours later, stiff and cold... but it keeps killing me that I made a picture of him dead and yesterday I was looking at it and suddenly I got into panic mode thinking how come his mouth are closed and his tongue is not outside as I did not close it or put his tongue in... he looked like he was sleeping... and it just attacked me, the anxiety.
now I am going into a panic that he might have been alive... it is crazy and I feel totally down.
It is 25 days later... I feel like it is getting worse, not better, the feeling of permanent loss is just killing me...
Did any of you have this feeling? Do I need distraction in form of new baby... does that help.
I need to let him go.