Some of you might have read my ranting thread from last week. Thank you everyone for your sincere replies, emails and PM's. It really means a lot to me! You helped more than you could ever know!
Here's a short update on whats happening. My Dad came home this weekend and we had a chat. We both agreed that we are hot tempered at times with each other and we both said things that we regret. He also admitted that he has a problem with drinking and he is thinking about seeing a Doctor for depression. I tried to explain to him the alchol is a depressant and medication will not help if he still plans on drinking. He still drank this weekend, but it was a lot less than usual. I was proud of him for trying at least. It also looks like I'm not going to be kicked out of the house anytime soon. He understands that I can not afford to move out right now and he knows that I am trying to save up the money to do so. BTW, we were afraid of him losing his job over the accident, but luckily he is still employed! Mom and Dad are both very happy over that!
Now...the next issue...My BF. He finally called me on Thursday and we had a short chat. I told him that I didn't think our relationship was the same as before and I was tired of waiting for him to move me out there. We've been together for 3 1/2 years and the entire time he has promised me that I'd move out there as soon as possible. It always seems like there is an excuse and frankly I'm tired of the excuses. He said that he wanted to me to think about all of this and he would call me on Tuesday to hear my final answer. I've been a nervous wreck about it! I love him and I've invested a lot of time, energy and love for it all to be wasted. BUT...if I don't see a future with him, there will only be more wasted time, energy and love. I want to be strong and tell him like it is...but I feel so weak. He is such a smooth talker and always knows what to say to sucker me back into it all. He's done this once before (almost a year ago) and it broke my heart terribly. I do not want to go through that pain again...but I know that it is for the best.
Will all of you please send some good vibes my way? I'm really going to need it! Thank you all for listening to me rant once again...You all are such great listeners (but...do you have a choice?*LOL*)!
Thank you once again!
Here's a short update on whats happening. My Dad came home this weekend and we had a chat. We both agreed that we are hot tempered at times with each other and we both said things that we regret. He also admitted that he has a problem with drinking and he is thinking about seeing a Doctor for depression. I tried to explain to him the alchol is a depressant and medication will not help if he still plans on drinking. He still drank this weekend, but it was a lot less than usual. I was proud of him for trying at least. It also looks like I'm not going to be kicked out of the house anytime soon. He understands that I can not afford to move out right now and he knows that I am trying to save up the money to do so. BTW, we were afraid of him losing his job over the accident, but luckily he is still employed! Mom and Dad are both very happy over that!
Now...the next issue...My BF. He finally called me on Thursday and we had a short chat. I told him that I didn't think our relationship was the same as before and I was tired of waiting for him to move me out there. We've been together for 3 1/2 years and the entire time he has promised me that I'd move out there as soon as possible. It always seems like there is an excuse and frankly I'm tired of the excuses. He said that he wanted to me to think about all of this and he would call me on Tuesday to hear my final answer. I've been a nervous wreck about it! I love him and I've invested a lot of time, energy and love for it all to be wasted. BUT...if I don't see a future with him, there will only be more wasted time, energy and love. I want to be strong and tell him like it is...but I feel so weak. He is such a smooth talker and always knows what to say to sucker me back into it all. He's done this once before (almost a year ago) and it broke my heart terribly. I do not want to go through that pain again...but I know that it is for the best.
Will all of you please send some good vibes my way? I'm really going to need it! Thank you all for listening to me rant once again...You all are such great listeners (but...do you have a choice?*LOL*)!
Thank you once again!