I want to believe in marriage, I really do. It's hard though, both of my parents come from past marriages and are truly unhappy in their current marriage. I don't really understand why they stay together, and my sister and I have asked them to get a divorce and stop all the pain time and time again.
I see other people who have been happy in their marriages though. Both sets of grandparents stayed together for about 53 years. In fact, my grandfather's funeral on my dad's side was on their 53rd wedding anniversary. It's so wonderful to see the love that the two of them had. It truly makes me believe in love.
With satistics the way they are though, with about a 50/50 chance of making it the first time and having the odds of divorce go up after each one...it makes me sad and wonder if marriage may be something that's been a social hype for generations and is slowly wearing off.
I guess some of my negative thoughts come from the fact that I recently broke up with my ex boyfriend who I loved so dearly. He just couldn't love me enough. I'd like to think that there will be someone out there who will treat me like the queen I am, but it's hard to get passed the pain that the last relationship caused. It feels like unconditional love from a man just isn't out there for me.
I hope someday that I can find the love that my grandmother has had, and maybe someone who will play the saxophone under MY window late at night