My baby has crossed the bridge

Diesel crossed the rainbow bridge on Tuesday after being diagnosed with a mass on his kidney. Lymphoma. 

I had my kitty since I was 9 years old from a vet. I remember the day he showed me the photo of him. I was so excited. The day I met him he got spooked right after I picked him up. He jumped over my shoulder and ran down my back with all his claws out. My mom looked at me and asked if I still wanted him. I nodded my head with pain all over my face. We took him home that night. 13 years have passed since the day I got him. 13 years of him being completely babied and spoiled. We moved around a lot throughout the years but he always was fine with it as long as he had me and my stuff. He loved every computer chair I ever had. He was a great cat. A wonderful and loyal kitty. Often acting more like a dog by following me everywhere in the house and waiting at the door for me to come home. He knew he was an extremely pretty boy and I often reminded him that too. He was always there when I needed him. We bonded so much through the years! 

When I took him to the vet after days and days of force feeding him and watching him get weaker. I had to get financial aid before I went but I got it. The vet did the physical exam. Showed us that he weighed 3.90 kg. He lost so much weight through not eating. He lost Muscle mass. His eyes were sunken from dehydration even though we had thought he was drinking a sufficient amount. I couldn't believe the growl that came out of him when she touched the mass. It hurt him so much. I knew then that things were extremely bad. the vet told us every option we could do but chances were that none of them would help him. His condition was fragile. I decided then that I would have to let my baby go. It will be difficult to get over losing him but I know it was the best decision to euthanize him. I couldn't let my baby suffer anymore.

I find myself still so emotional over my loss. I keep thinking he'll jump up on me while I'm here at the computer or he'll be at the door waiting for me to come home. 

Here's a picture of him. It's one of my favorites of him. 

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I'm so very sorry for the pain you are going through, it is natural that you grieve for losing such an important part of your life. You couldn't stand by and let your sweet Diesel continue to suffer from something that had no cure,you took on his pain as your own broken heart and allowed him to go to his eternal rest. You gave that boy 13 years of love and happiness, that is all he ever wanted. Now he wants for you to go on into the future and find that happiness again, he loves you too much for you to spend time in sorrow. Let your precious memories comfort you, use the bond you have with him to bring you peace. He left a piece of himself with you when he left, it is intertwined with your soul and will be a part of you for the rest of your life. The piece of you he took with him will be well treasured, you will feel him hold on to it and send his love love to you throughout the years.

He left you a legacy of love, try to celebrate having him in your life, he gave you so much joy for a while. The pain is great, it is equal to the strength of your love,  but not knowing him at all would have been far worse. 

I'll keep you both in my thoughts and prayers, thank you so much for giving us this beautiful tribute to such a handsome boy. I pray a little of the pain can be released with it's writing, it helps to share your grief with people who understand. Take care.......

RIP beautiful Diesel, you were well loved and will never be forgotten. Know you will be forever held in a loving heart by the one who loved you above all else!

Thank you for sharing your beautiful Diesel with us. I'm so very sorry for your loss. You and Diesel knew from your first meeting that you had found the soulmate each of you had been looking for. It's wonderful you both had so many years together. I know that right now 13 years doesn't seem nearly long enough.
In the end, you gave Diesel that final selfless gift of love to end his pain and suffering. Diesel is a peace over the Rainbow Bridge and his only wish is that you find some peace as well. He is watching over you and is grateful for the blessed life you gave him.

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I am so sorry for your loss.   

RIP precious angel Diesel. 

I'm so sorry for the loss of your friend. He was a handsome boy. They have such a huge impact on our daily lives. Thanks for your great tribute to him. I hope that the memories of what a great cat he was helps with the sorrow.

I am sorry for you loss, he was a beautiful boy. Be free sweet boy and be free of pain. 

What a beautiful boy he was!
I am so, so sorry for your loss. I understand how it feels. Many here do.
It sounds like he was in pain, and you freed him from that.
A final gift you can be sure he was thankful for.
I teared up reading your story, because I have been there too, not too long ago.
I also lost my baby boy Angel, to lymphoma. I hate it! With the help of many friends here, we were able to go through almost half of the chemo treatments, & it was working at first, but then it just spread.
As hard as it was, I knew when it was time, & had to do the same thing. It is very hard to do, but as others said, you are comforted with knowing you are freeing them from the pain and suffering.
(The 5th will be 6 months already for me).

Know that he is with you in spirit. I am sending you lots of healing hugs, & prayer!


We are here to talk whenever you need. Please take care of yourself.

I am so sorry for the loss of your sweet Boy. I too let my girl go to the bridge yesterday for lymphoma. I had no clue she had it other than weight loss. I know after the exam and all the problems wrong we decided the most kindest thing is to let her go. I understand the crying and just laying there staring at nothing sobbing your heart out. you let yourself cry because it will help. Crying will give you a headache if you dont drink enough fluids so make sure you drink and keep hydrated. I found that by allowing myself the tears, it helps so much but the pain is so deep. We love our animals more than we love ourselves I think And I would do it all over again even if it hurts this much. You gave him the best life ever. He will always live in your heart. I don't have any words to take away the pain but I know how it hurts. Fly Free Diesel at the Bridge.

Thank you everyone for your kind words. You guys have been a great support system. Reading all your posts have comforted me quite a bit!   

My condolences. Diesel was a beautiful boy - he looks so majestic in that photo.