However, I know it is a superficial relationship with all of my "friends" except for Jesus and my mother. They are the only ones I trust completely with my life. My girlfriends are very, very self-centered and shallow,BUT they did reach out to me first and always want to have a good time with me, so I have been friends with a very small group for over 10 years even though I can't really rely on them for emotional depth or support.
Men are in a whole different category! I am good friends with my ex-fiancee, but again he is better at surface,child-like relationships and cannot pull himself together enough to pass as an EMOTIONALLY mature adult. Sure, he lives on his own and pays the bills, but he is what I call a dead man walking. He has not a empathetic bone in his body and his emotional state is that of a 13 year-old boy. He only lives to have fun at waterparks, camping, fairs, and eating. When not doing those things he works and sleeps. I believe he suffers from clinical depression, but he has never been diagnosed professionally. He cannot engage in serious adult relationships and he is 37 years old!
Other guy "friends" in my life come and go, and don't really like to do things with me on purpose. If I run into them by accident at a party or something, they are very funny, kind, and friendly (sometimes too friendly!) I also have had LOTS of men bosses and so forth act like complete jackasses, so I have lost any respect for men and don't go out of my way to make friends with any new men I meet.
Basically, sometimes I feel VERY alone in the world and TRUE friend-less, but other times I feel lucky to have a great mother, a great Savior, and brains that I use to go to college, run my own pet-sitting business, and I don't feel so "alone" anymore. Whoa! Sorry about the length! This is good therapy for me LOL!