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I don't know if anyone else who's mentally ill feels this way, but I can't help thinking about putting my cat to sleep in order to spiral.
I WOULD NEVER DO IT!
However, the thought bothers me. It comes at night, through the early morning. Basically whenever I'm alone.
He is very particular, to put it lightly, I am fully aware no one will take him nor will anyone be as good as I am to him. It makes me feel guilty for being depressed with suicidal tendencies, even if I will never go through with them, I still feel bad. What would happen to him? Then the thought of putting him down starts. It's distressing to put it lightly. It's a cycle and it's gone on for about a year, but recently it's gotten worse to the point that it is now oozing into nightmares.
I'm just asking if anyone else shares this, maybe. I'm not actually going to do anything, I have no control over my obsessive; intrusive thoughts and they do not reflect me as a person. Nor does anyone elses, for that matter.
I WOULD NEVER DO IT!
However, the thought bothers me. It comes at night, through the early morning. Basically whenever I'm alone.
He is very particular, to put it lightly, I am fully aware no one will take him nor will anyone be as good as I am to him. It makes me feel guilty for being depressed with suicidal tendencies, even if I will never go through with them, I still feel bad. What would happen to him? Then the thought of putting him down starts. It's distressing to put it lightly. It's a cycle and it's gone on for about a year, but recently it's gotten worse to the point that it is now oozing into nightmares.
I'm just asking if anyone else shares this, maybe. I'm not actually going to do anything, I have no control over my obsessive; intrusive thoughts and they do not reflect me as a person. Nor does anyone elses, for that matter.