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It started out innocently enough, I finally got a doctor's appointment, a real one for Mike. But when he found out I had made it, he exploded at me. Said I could go alone, because he wasn't going! I snapped about then- and we had a raging fight. We have been married 18 years and I can count on one hand how many actual fights we have had. This one was a bad one, culminating in something i don't normally do delivering an ultimatum. Either he goes to the doctor next week or I leave him. I told him I won't sit here while he kills himself from stupidity. He didn't believe me, then he capitulated and said he would go. But said he was really angry. Then last night he changed his mind and said he wouldn't go...sigh....
This morning, my girlfriend came with her trailer and we started loading my two horses inside. He saw then I was serious. He stopped the loading and we sat down and had a good cleansing talk.
Turns out he is scared, and mad at himself for not paying attention to his body when he could do something about it, and now that is spiraling out of his control he is agitated. Plus his blood sugar being so high makes him irritable. It was a good talk after a really dark day yesterday. I had left him for four hours, didn't tell him where i was going, just took off for a long drive and a walk around the lake.
I did tell him that i left one man because I didn't care enough about him, but that won't stop me from leaving the only man that ever mattered to me in my life. I would not sit here and watch him die and do nothing to stop it.
This morning, my girlfriend came with her trailer and we started loading my two horses inside. He saw then I was serious. He stopped the loading and we sat down and had a good cleansing talk.
Turns out he is scared, and mad at himself for not paying attention to his body when he could do something about it, and now that is spiraling out of his control he is agitated. Plus his blood sugar being so high makes him irritable. It was a good talk after a really dark day yesterday. I had left him for four hours, didn't tell him where i was going, just took off for a long drive and a walk around the lake.
I did tell him that i left one man because I didn't care enough about him, but that won't stop me from leaving the only man that ever mattered to me in my life. I would not sit here and watch him die and do nothing to stop it.