Hubby and I have been married 4.5 years with very few problems. We have a good relationship and we trust each other but there is a problem. I can't accept his compliments. If he tells me that I am beautiful or talented or an awesome wife, I just don't believe him.
When I look in the mirror, I see a plain, pasty white, kind of frumpy and dumpy looking person on crutches. All I see are flaws. I don't have great skin, my lips are peeling and inflamed, and I am not a lithe, muscular stick figure like I used to be. I wear a size 10 in jeans. Size 10 is what the chicks on the diet commercials say that they used to be! I got a couple of shirts yesterday that fit really nice, but they are X-tra Large. I wish I knew what he saw in me. I don't know how to be a girly girl. I would rather drink beer and talk about fishing and welding and cats, than talk about girly stuff.
I just think that he could do so much better and he deserves someone better than me. He says that he wishes that I wouldn't get so "down" on myself, but I tell him that is just who I am. I just feel so useless.
I'm sorry for the huge vent/pity party, but I just had to get all this off my chest.
When I look in the mirror, I see a plain, pasty white, kind of frumpy and dumpy looking person on crutches. All I see are flaws. I don't have great skin, my lips are peeling and inflamed, and I am not a lithe, muscular stick figure like I used to be. I wear a size 10 in jeans. Size 10 is what the chicks on the diet commercials say that they used to be! I got a couple of shirts yesterday that fit really nice, but they are X-tra Large. I wish I knew what he saw in me. I don't know how to be a girly girl. I would rather drink beer and talk about fishing and welding and cats, than talk about girly stuff.
I just think that he could do so much better and he deserves someone better than me. He says that he wishes that I wouldn't get so "down" on myself, but I tell him that is just who I am. I just feel so useless.
I'm sorry for the huge vent/pity party, but I just had to get all this off my chest.