Why in the world did I agree to a wedding??? Some of you should kick my butt. I said I just wanted to get married and you agreed that if thats what we wanted, we should just elope.
Is that what we're doing? NO. *whine*
I waivered on the issue based on my Mom being upset. At first I was going to do what we wanted. Than I got those guilt feelings.
We do NOT have a budget for a wedding, but are doing it anyways. Now the apartment is all torn up. We had to fix a hole in the ceiling (roof leak from a bad repair job after the hurricanes). Now my poor DF is painting. I have some carpet that we are going to install. It just makes sense to do this after painting while furniture is moved anyways. The reason we are doing it at all is because Tripod decided to dig the old carpet up around the edge, so we told the landlord we would replace it.
Then all the clean-up and then cleaning, trimming and decorating the outside areas... We have to do all this before we can decorate, because the wedding is in the backyard.
I want to be married so bad. I just am not looking forward to the wedding. I feel like I can't even enjoy planning the little details because everywhere I look theres a mess.
Its less than a month away.
I am being so foolish by feeling this way. I get to marry a wonderful man who I am so in love with. He loves me and the cats. I don't know whats wrong with me. I am so depressed for no good reason.
Is that what we're doing? NO. *whine*
I waivered on the issue based on my Mom being upset. At first I was going to do what we wanted. Than I got those guilt feelings.
Then all the clean-up and then cleaning, trimming and decorating the outside areas... We have to do all this before we can decorate, because the wedding is in the backyard.
I want to be married so bad. I just am not looking forward to the wedding. I feel like I can't even enjoy planning the little details because everywhere I look theres a mess.
Its less than a month away.
I am being so foolish by feeling this way. I get to marry a wonderful man who I am so in love with. He loves me and the cats. I don't know whats wrong with me. I am so depressed for no good reason.