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I lost my beloved Tesla in January this year. She was only 3 years and 4 months old but developed a heart condition (restrictive cardiomyopathy).
I spent 6 months on high alert with her as at the time of diagnosis the vet told me one way for her to go was a saddle thrombosis that would cause paralysis and a lot of pain. So everytime I came home from work I wondered if she would be dead or in serious pain. I barely slept listening for any sound that would mean she was struggling.
It was emotionally draining but thankfully the end was quick and painless, she missed breakfast one morning (she was always a good eater) so I knew it was time and both me and the husband were there to rush her to the vets and sat goodbye.
However, 9 months later we have a new kitten as our other cat was getting lonely and my husband and family who were all very supportive at the time are over her loss and expect me to be too.
But I miss her so bad.
I cry when I'm on my own and wont get rid of her bed. The few times I've found our new kitten sleeping on her bed has made all the pain come crashing back and I'm still barely sleeping. I watch my other cats for signs of heart issues and I can't seem to relax and enjoy their company but instead spend time convinced they also have a terminal illness that will take them away.
How can I deal with this and move on? I just feel so alone right now.
I spent 6 months on high alert with her as at the time of diagnosis the vet told me one way for her to go was a saddle thrombosis that would cause paralysis and a lot of pain. So everytime I came home from work I wondered if she would be dead or in serious pain. I barely slept listening for any sound that would mean she was struggling.
It was emotionally draining but thankfully the end was quick and painless, she missed breakfast one morning (she was always a good eater) so I knew it was time and both me and the husband were there to rush her to the vets and sat goodbye.
However, 9 months later we have a new kitten as our other cat was getting lonely and my husband and family who were all very supportive at the time are over her loss and expect me to be too.
But I miss her so bad.
I cry when I'm on my own and wont get rid of her bed. The few times I've found our new kitten sleeping on her bed has made all the pain come crashing back and I'm still barely sleeping. I watch my other cats for signs of heart issues and I can't seem to relax and enjoy their company but instead spend time convinced they also have a terminal illness that will take them away.
How can I deal with this and move on? I just feel so alone right now.