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Ok, well i went out of town for a few nights with My Friend, her man and his best friend Jay.
Now about 6 years ago, Jay and I had a fling. We never went all the way Well I messed it up, and after one night of staying with Jay, I went home and my ex was there, I had just dumped him for Jay. We were together, and like a fool i told someone and someone told Jay....
I did'nt think that things were really that serious b/t us, so I didnt think Jay would get mad, well the next day we were at work and Jay and I were leaning on the counter, his arms around me, that someone tells him and he let go...
We stopped seeing each other after that, I think I hurt his feelings. But we remained good friends. He then left for the Marines, and I got back with the ex, and had Kylee.
Well 6 years of being good friends, and no touchy touchy. And after we stopped seeing each other I tried to pretend i didnt like him and tried stop liking him. RIGHT..... After 6 years and one year of not seeing him at all, I was still nuts about him...
So the day comes and Mary and the men come to pick me up, I had to sit in the back with Jay. I had not seen him in almost a year or so. Things were kinda quiet for a few mins. Then we started playing our Gameboy DS', and things went on from there. We stopped at a store on the way to the hotel, he got what he wanted and I was the last one in the store, well I thought they were all waiting for me in the truck, but I turn around and Jay is standing by the door watching me. I paid for the stuff and he held open the door and we left. Now the funny thing about that was that Jay has never been like that with anyone that I have ever seen, he usually doesnt give two poos and just waits in the car. AWWWWWW sweeeeeettttt... lol
So there we were, lights out, and Mary and her man sleeping. So we had our fun the first night and second, not all the way, but it was the most fun I think I had ever had, even when i was with the ex. I had never had that much fun. And it was kinda nice, I have gained a bit of weight since we last saw each other, but it didnt bother him.. You should have heard that man, I had him gigglin' like a kid the whole night. And he is not a giggler. I have never heard him laugh like that in all the 6 years I have known him. He sounded so happy or something lol.
He asked me why I would choose him to be with, it has been almost 5 years for me, he knew that, and I told him that I felt comfy with him. He seemed kinda dispirited, so then later (lol) he asked again, and he said "why, I am stupid and and a loser" I told him that he wasnt and I told him I liked him. And then we took a cuddle break and we were talking and I said "wow we havent dont this in like 5 years" and he said "no its been almost 6". He remembered better than I did lol. and earlier that night we were all playing truth or dare, and the question came up about the first time we saw each other, and he remembered everything! I was there and I couldnt remember half of what he did
He remembered and I didnt lol. And the whole time, he was so snuggy and gentle ohhhhhhhhhhh myyyyyyy ....swoooooonnnn...... LOL
Right, so we didnt get to bed till around 6am, and left at 10 am and they brought me home, I brought my stuff in the house and said bye to everyone but Jay, he was still in the truck. So I go out there and got a lifethreating hug and tickle, said goodbye and they left.
Now you would think I would miss my best friend more right? Wrong! for some messed up reason I cant get this guy outta my head! And what really sucks for me is that I probly'' wont get the chance to tell him how I "really" feel. whaaaaa
I have been a mess! I actually have to hold back tears some times because I get so sad.... WHAT THE HECK IS WRONG WITH ME?
So someone please tell me what is wrong with me? and what am I going to do?
he lives almost 400 miles away...
Now about 6 years ago, Jay and I had a fling. We never went all the way Well I messed it up, and after one night of staying with Jay, I went home and my ex was there, I had just dumped him for Jay. We were together, and like a fool i told someone and someone told Jay....
I did'nt think that things were really that serious b/t us, so I didnt think Jay would get mad, well the next day we were at work and Jay and I were leaning on the counter, his arms around me, that someone tells him and he let go...
We stopped seeing each other after that, I think I hurt his feelings. But we remained good friends. He then left for the Marines, and I got back with the ex, and had Kylee.
Well 6 years of being good friends, and no touchy touchy. And after we stopped seeing each other I tried to pretend i didnt like him and tried stop liking him. RIGHT..... After 6 years and one year of not seeing him at all, I was still nuts about him...
So the day comes and Mary and the men come to pick me up, I had to sit in the back with Jay. I had not seen him in almost a year or so. Things were kinda quiet for a few mins. Then we started playing our Gameboy DS', and things went on from there. We stopped at a store on the way to the hotel, he got what he wanted and I was the last one in the store, well I thought they were all waiting for me in the truck, but I turn around and Jay is standing by the door watching me. I paid for the stuff and he held open the door and we left. Now the funny thing about that was that Jay has never been like that with anyone that I have ever seen, he usually doesnt give two poos and just waits in the car. AWWWWWW sweeeeeettttt... lol
So there we were, lights out, and Mary and her man sleeping. So we had our fun the first night and second, not all the way, but it was the most fun I think I had ever had, even when i was with the ex. I had never had that much fun. And it was kinda nice, I have gained a bit of weight since we last saw each other, but it didnt bother him.. You should have heard that man, I had him gigglin' like a kid the whole night. And he is not a giggler. I have never heard him laugh like that in all the 6 years I have known him. He sounded so happy or something lol.
He asked me why I would choose him to be with, it has been almost 5 years for me, he knew that, and I told him that I felt comfy with him. He seemed kinda dispirited, so then later (lol) he asked again, and he said "why, I am stupid and and a loser" I told him that he wasnt and I told him I liked him. And then we took a cuddle break and we were talking and I said "wow we havent dont this in like 5 years" and he said "no its been almost 6". He remembered better than I did lol. and earlier that night we were all playing truth or dare, and the question came up about the first time we saw each other, and he remembered everything! I was there and I couldnt remember half of what he did
Right, so we didnt get to bed till around 6am, and left at 10 am and they brought me home, I brought my stuff in the house and said bye to everyone but Jay, he was still in the truck. So I go out there and got a lifethreating hug and tickle, said goodbye and they left.
Now you would think I would miss my best friend more right? Wrong! for some messed up reason I cant get this guy outta my head! And what really sucks for me is that I probly'' wont get the chance to tell him how I "really" feel. whaaaaa
I have been a mess! I actually have to hold back tears some times because I get so sad.... WHAT THE HECK IS WRONG WITH ME?
So someone please tell me what is wrong with me? and what am I going to do?
he lives almost 400 miles away...