Eva, I am so very very sorry. I was reading every word you wrote and read it all again (could barely get through it
) and I sense that if the death ocurred earlier than thought, maybe you were just meant to shepherd it from one heaven to another. That's what I think, hon. Geez, there's nothing worse than how you feel right now, I am so so so sorry. I cannot have any children myself due to what my mother did to me at a very young age of which we will save that for a rainy day because this thread is about you, but I have always longed for a baby.
So I have lots of fur instead. I will pray for you and I know that within time--let your body heal, you must-- it will all be good. Many, many hugs~~~~~
Love,
Elizabeth
Love,
Elizabeth