For those of you who have been reading my thread and helping me so much on trying to make Molly a part of our home you know that nothing has worked and we have come to grips with the fact that she needs to be elsewhere to be happy - a home with no other cats. Well - I've found someone to take her for me - a local feline rescue is going to take her to an adoption event they are having in eastern Mass this Saturday and I have to meet with them tonite to give her up. I have to say that I have been bawling like a baby since the phone call (even though the call was a good one - she will be getting help) and I haven't even had to give her up yet. I was reading through the new postings and saw the one in the cat lounge - what makes you cry.....well this is it. This is why I could never be a foster home. She's only been with me for 3 months and I am about to lose it here. I'm sitting in my cubicle at work right now crying as I type this - what a wimp! It's not just the missing her that bothers me, it's wondering what will happen for her next. Will she be in a loving home? Will they treat her good? Will they yell at her or be mean to her?
It's not knowing that's killing me! I may as well have adopted a child and as with a child - I would want to meet the "new parents", interview them, grill them with questions, inspect their home, talk to their friends and family.... Am I nuts? It's a cat! But I feel like it's a child. Have I lost my mind? I'm not sure I can just hand her over to some stranger tonite. Even the lady at the rescue must think I"m crazy - I kept repeating her likes and dislikes over and over again and she was like - I know, I know. She must think I"m cuckoo.
That and just to put the icing on the cake - (timing couldn't have been better!) - my boyfriend of many years and I broke up 2 months ago but have remained close friends (a little closer than we should have been probably) and just this week I have found out that I think he has a new girlfriend. Even though we were just friends and I knew this day would come (and we probably shouldn't have been spending as much time together as we were) - the timing sucks and I'm actually not handling the news as well as I thought I would. We were together for over 8 years. That's a long time. I thought I would be able to accept him with other people, but I have come to reality that I can't, it's still too soon. Which now means losing a best friend until I am ready to accept it. It was the look in his eyes when he received a message from her that said it all - that look use to be reserved for me.
Anyways - I guess it's just been a rough past few days for me all around and I am counting the days until May (I am hoping the warmer weather and a new month will give me a new outlook)
That and just to put the icing on the cake - (timing couldn't have been better!) - my boyfriend of many years and I broke up 2 months ago but have remained close friends (a little closer than we should have been probably) and just this week I have found out that I think he has a new girlfriend. Even though we were just friends and I knew this day would come (and we probably shouldn't have been spending as much time together as we were) - the timing sucks and I'm actually not handling the news as well as I thought I would. We were together for over 8 years. That's a long time. I thought I would be able to accept him with other people, but I have come to reality that I can't, it's still too soon. Which now means losing a best friend until I am ready to accept it. It was the look in his eyes when he received a message from her that said it all - that look use to be reserved for me.
Anyways - I guess it's just been a rough past few days for me all around and I am counting the days until May (I am hoping the warmer weather and a new month will give me a new outlook)