Valerie,
Your post is so incredibly touching. I can understand what you are going through as I lost my previous cat unexpectedly when he ate string, and then died after surgery that did not go well. I was 8.5 months pregnant and we got a phone call in the middle of the night from the vet that he had died. We thought that maybe God took him for some reason -- like maybe there was going to be a problem between him and the baby that my husband and I would overlook because we loved the cat so much.
Valerie, something that I found that was really helpful to me was that I spent a few days writing down a long long list of everything about my kitty that I loved -- because I was so afraid I would lose those memories. The list went on for 10 pages- - stuff like "I loved the way Dudley blinked when he woke up in the morning" -- silly, tiny, little details but things that I never wanted to forget.
It may seem like it would make you sad to write this, but it also made me smile as I thought of each memory. And then, in the future, when you are stronger, you can come back and read it with fondness.
After I finally finished writing the list, I felt a little 'releived' in a way that I was able to write it all down so that these memories were preserved forever.
Thinking of you.
Your post is so incredibly touching. I can understand what you are going through as I lost my previous cat unexpectedly when he ate string, and then died after surgery that did not go well. I was 8.5 months pregnant and we got a phone call in the middle of the night from the vet that he had died. We thought that maybe God took him for some reason -- like maybe there was going to be a problem between him and the baby that my husband and I would overlook because we loved the cat so much.
Valerie, something that I found that was really helpful to me was that I spent a few days writing down a long long list of everything about my kitty that I loved -- because I was so afraid I would lose those memories. The list went on for 10 pages- - stuff like "I loved the way Dudley blinked when he woke up in the morning" -- silly, tiny, little details but things that I never wanted to forget.
It may seem like it would make you sad to write this, but it also made me smile as I thought of each memory. And then, in the future, when you are stronger, you can come back and read it with fondness.
After I finally finished writing the list, I felt a little 'releived' in a way that I was able to write it all down so that these memories were preserved forever.
Thinking of you.
