The vet gave her more subcut. fluids this afternoon, and some liquid anti-inflammatory/pain med. She said her upper gum looks like it's all caved in now - rapidly deteriorating. What's making things incredibly hard for me, is that Maggie is still Maggie. In a compromised way of course, but she's still on her perch in the kitchen, she's still meowing when you walk near her, she's still asking for food - and that's the heart-wrenching part - she asks for it, and then when I lay out a spread before her, she looks at it and looks back at me. And doesn't touch it. I do think she ate a couple bites of moist food tonight, but that's it. I'm not sure if she touched the tuna juice yet or not. The vet agrees that she is "still here" but her body is slipping away. I don't know if I can take her in while she's still Maggie - my last indoor cat had cancer take over his liver and he just curled up and slept - just gave up interest in anything else. He made it easy. (You know what I mean) How can I look her in the face when she's still looking back at me and take her to the vet for the last time?! And yet she sounds horrible... and she must be in pain or she would eat.... but. How can I do it??? The other "situation" is that the vet will be gone for continuing education on Thursday & Friday. So if I don't chose to do something on Wed, it must wait at least until Saturday. Then she's closed on Sundays & Mondays. I hate to go somewhere else - they've been so wonderful and Maggie knows them.
I just don't know yet what to do. I do need to see how she is tomorrow... but what if she's still "herself"?? I'm afraid she will be so much worse by Saturday.... but then maybe that would make it easier....
I hate to ask this, but I have to -- please tell me (my dh took in my last cat - I just couldn't go - but I think I need to with Maggie - even though I don't want to....) They give them something first, right? To sedate them? I just don't want her to go from sitting to falling over.... I'd rather see her lay down & curl up of her own accord.... before....
I have to say that the absolute worst experience of my entire life was watching my dog die on the ground in front of me with a twisted stomach - but this seems to be in second place. If she only wanted to give up....
I just don't know yet what to do. I do need to see how she is tomorrow... but what if she's still "herself"?? I'm afraid she will be so much worse by Saturday.... but then maybe that would make it easier....
I hate to ask this, but I have to -- please tell me (my dh took in my last cat - I just couldn't go - but I think I need to with Maggie - even though I don't want to....) They give them something first, right? To sedate them? I just don't want her to go from sitting to falling over.... I'd rather see her lay down & curl up of her own accord.... before....
I have to say that the absolute worst experience of my entire life was watching my dog die on the ground in front of me with a twisted stomach - but this seems to be in second place. If she only wanted to give up....