oooOo good luck!Originally Posted by menagerie mama
Gah!
Beer+Guy you want to be more than friends with=disaster!
So we went out tonight and drank too much and then on our way home we started talking and I mentioned regretting stuff and not doing what I wanted to be doing.....he took my hand and asked me to tell him about it and so we got into this big discussion about US dating and he again said he's not ready to commit because of issues he has, and I said that chalks it up as he's not interested in ME, like there's something wrong with me, and he swore up and down it's not me, (yeah, I know "it's not you, it's me", blah blah) and after talking about it I got this insane idea to kiss him and see what he did and so I said "I have an experiment" (um, duh...) and he said ok, so I kissed him and he tried to resist at first but then he just went with it and we kissed for a minute and I said if you felt absolutely nothing from that, then I'll drop the whole issue. He said he didn't feel nothing from it and he was smiling so I don't think it was a total disaster and we made plans after that to see each other tomorrow so we'll see what happens. We had sobered up before the ride home so it's not like he'll forget what we talked about. But, as usual, I am debating whether I did the right thing. I don't want to force him to be with me if he doesn't want to, but if it's truly not me and he has issues with commitment, which I think stem from his breakup two years ago, then that's something we could resolve.....right?the guy is like my soul mate, if I can't be with him, who can I be with, and when?