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I think fate likes to torture me. It's really not fair.
I have been single for 2 years now and I have learned to be really happy by myself, for the most part. I do feel lonely at times but usually not to the point of making me unhappy. I have my life on track and things couldn't be better.
Ever since I broke up with my ex, I had been having harmless crushes on different people. Which is fun. I'd usually have crushes on more than one guy at a time so if one of them gives me a sign of not being so great, it didn't matter, I'd just focus on another one. Plus I wasn't really serious about any of them anyways.
Then that guy came along. At first I had yet another innocent crush on him, until I actually got to know him.
I started thinking only about him, loosing interest in other guys and always looking forward to the next time I got to see him. When summer came, we stopped having classes together and therefore stopped seeing him. It broke my heart at first but after a few weeks, I was alright. I thought about him a lot, still had no interest in other guys and really looked forward to seeing him again in the fall... but I wasn't sad. Things were fine again.
Until today. I was at a photocopy shop near the university when I saw him walking towards the university. He didn't see me and I couldn't get his attention (unless I ran out of the store screaming his name
). After that, I spent a few more hours at the university, basically finding any excuses to wander around trying to "accidently" run into him.
no luck.
It's so unfair. I hate what my feelings for him have done to me. I wish I could just forget about him. I like having control over my own feelings and over my life... now I feel like I don't have control anymore.
Love stinks.
I have been single for 2 years now and I have learned to be really happy by myself, for the most part. I do feel lonely at times but usually not to the point of making me unhappy. I have my life on track and things couldn't be better.
Ever since I broke up with my ex, I had been having harmless crushes on different people. Which is fun. I'd usually have crushes on more than one guy at a time so if one of them gives me a sign of not being so great, it didn't matter, I'd just focus on another one. Plus I wasn't really serious about any of them anyways.
Then that guy came along. At first I had yet another innocent crush on him, until I actually got to know him.
I started thinking only about him, loosing interest in other guys and always looking forward to the next time I got to see him. When summer came, we stopped having classes together and therefore stopped seeing him. It broke my heart at first but after a few weeks, I was alright. I thought about him a lot, still had no interest in other guys and really looked forward to seeing him again in the fall... but I wasn't sad. Things were fine again.
Until today. I was at a photocopy shop near the university when I saw him walking towards the university. He didn't see me and I couldn't get his attention (unless I ran out of the store screaming his name
no luck.
It's so unfair. I hate what my feelings for him have done to me. I wish I could just forget about him. I like having control over my own feelings and over my life... now I feel like I don't have control anymore.
Love stinks.