Tonight was the night I had to let my gorgeous baby woo go.......to say I'm heartbroken is an understatement. I feel like a huge hole has been cut from my heart and im feeling so alone and unable to cope......Ive never felt loss and pain like this. I feel like im going to burst I just cant take it, Woo was without doubt my most treasured companion in life, she was my little bundle of joy no matter the times in my life.
I just cant find the words to describe my despair..................as i sit and write this tears fall down onto the keys and i cant help but think did i do it too soon. Woo had a cancer that came on very quick and was untreable, she had lost so much weight and was barely eating but still every morning she would find the strength to come sit on my lap while i did my make up n greet n when i returned from work. The vet kept elling me it was the right thing to do and that it was a kindness which i understand, and i didnt want her to suffer. However the whole process for me was so disstressing. They popped cream on her leg so it wouldnt hurt yet when they were putting the needle in she was hissing and growling,,,,,,,,then the final moments were so horrendous i nearly couldn't take it, I had imagined a peaceful going and it seemed so harsh............the look in her eyes were of saddness and seemed frighten, I couldnt keep it together. The she was gone......i just cant even begin to discribe the feeling of seeing her lifeless and without those big eyes looking back at me.
I just want to reverse it and have her here with me now.,,.........I cabt get the final moments out of my head and wonder where she is now and if she is ok....I kniw that sounds daft. How will i move past this......will i ever? I keep looking round the house for her,,,,,,,,,I just cant accept it.
I wanted to write about her and all the things i loved and how she changed my life but I cant bring myself to, the memories are to painful to think of...................................................i am so very sad
I just cant find the words to describe my despair..................as i sit and write this tears fall down onto the keys and i cant help but think did i do it too soon. Woo had a cancer that came on very quick and was untreable, she had lost so much weight and was barely eating but still every morning she would find the strength to come sit on my lap while i did my make up n greet n when i returned from work. The vet kept elling me it was the right thing to do and that it was a kindness which i understand, and i didnt want her to suffer. However the whole process for me was so disstressing. They popped cream on her leg so it wouldnt hurt yet when they were putting the needle in she was hissing and growling,,,,,,,,then the final moments were so horrendous i nearly couldn't take it, I had imagined a peaceful going and it seemed so harsh............the look in her eyes were of saddness and seemed frighten, I couldnt keep it together. The she was gone......i just cant even begin to discribe the feeling of seeing her lifeless and without those big eyes looking back at me.
I just want to reverse it and have her here with me now.,,.........I cabt get the final moments out of my head and wonder where she is now and if she is ok....I kniw that sounds daft. How will i move past this......will i ever? I keep looking round the house for her,,,,,,,,,I just cant accept it.
I wanted to write about her and all the things i loved and how she changed my life but I cant bring myself to, the memories are to painful to think of...................................................i am so very sad