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I just said goodbye to my baby girl, Snowball, after 14 wonderful years with her. And it was the hardest thing I have ever had to do in my life. This cat and I grew up together. My mom got her for me when I was 10 and she was just a kitten of less than a month old. We've been through so much since then. For example, during a statewide blizzard in October 2011 that caused a massive blackout, she slept next to me head in bed at night every night that week. And she always loved to rub her face against my own face, purring happily as she did so. And of course, she liked to lay on my lap form time to time.
And now...she's gone. I have given her the world, and watching her go was devastating. She was diagnosed on Valentine's Day with oral squamous cell carcinoma, and managed to hold on up until this morning. And it's one of the most common yet deadliest things a cat can get. And just a year and a half ago, she went to the vet for the first time since she was young, and the vet did several checkups. There was nothing wrong with her. And then this year, it struck so suddenly.
We had her put down here at home, the environment she lived in her entire life. But it was still stressful. When the vet gave her the sedatives, she fought them all the way, even reaching out her paw toward my mother. And when she was being put down, she just laid there and stared at me the entire time, until her face changed, her body went limp, and she was gone. My baby girl was gone. And I cried. Heavily. Even though it was just recently, I already miss her so much.
I am not sure how to cope with this loss, waking up every morning and knowing that she isn't sleeping at the bottom of my bed. That she isn't being finicky about the food my mom gave her. That she's not going to jump up to a high place just to rub her face against mine. That she won't be greeting me when I come home...I just love her so much. And I feel like my life has so little purpose now. I still have so much love to give, and now she isn't here for me to give it to her.
I just wanted to vent, because I loved that cat more than anything. Rest in peace, Snowball. You are my little angel, even now. And you'll always be my baby girl. I love you...goodbye.