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I didn't know what to name this thread. Sixteen months ago, I had to let go of my best friend. I took him to throw vet and I was told his kidneys were shutting down. He was in pain, not eating or drinking and my beautiful Maine coon mix was fading away. The dr told me that he would be put to sleep and the. They would give him an injection while I held him....
I couldn't do it. I began to panic and sob. I knew I couldn't let him hurt. I also knew I couldn't hold him while he faded. The doctor came in while I was holding Proksi and rocking. The doctor asked me if I was alright and I said no this is my baby and he is leaving. The doctor sat beside me and told me that Proksi knows I love him because even while he was in pain and dying, he was nuzzling me. He told me that we were bonded and that Proksi will always be with me. I started crying loudera and asked if someone could hold him. I took off my coat, Proksi used to nest on it. I gave it to him then I told him how much he meant to me. The doctor brought a nurse in and they both hugged me. I couldn't stop sobbing even though I was in the lobby. To this day, I am mad at myself that the animal who loved me so much had to cross the bridge without me because I was weak.
I look at his picture everyday and my cat Piston has helped. There will always be a Proksi size hole in my heart.
I couldn't do it. I began to panic and sob. I knew I couldn't let him hurt. I also knew I couldn't hold him while he faded. The doctor came in while I was holding Proksi and rocking. The doctor asked me if I was alright and I said no this is my baby and he is leaving. The doctor sat beside me and told me that Proksi knows I love him because even while he was in pain and dying, he was nuzzling me. He told me that we were bonded and that Proksi will always be with me. I started crying loudera and asked if someone could hold him. I took off my coat, Proksi used to nest on it. I gave it to him then I told him how much he meant to me. The doctor brought a nurse in and they both hugged me. I couldn't stop sobbing even though I was in the lobby. To this day, I am mad at myself that the animal who loved me so much had to cross the bridge without me because I was weak.
I look at his picture everyday and my cat Piston has helped. There will always be a Proksi size hole in my heart.