This morning, I took my precious baby girl in to get her tail docked. The tissue has been necrosing (vet's word for it) and she had no feeling in it anyway. I picked her up at 1 this after noon and I haven't stopped crying since.
I KNOW this was something she needed done. I KNOW that it couldn't have waited any longer. I KNOW that everything that could be done to make her comfortable has been. But all this KNOWLEDGE doesn't have any effect on my emotions.
Her tail is now bobbed to only 1 vertebrae. The vet said there was still enough muscle left that she should not have any problems with bowel movements. But the way it looks, the stitches, the raw edge... every time I look at her Nub it makes me just feel so awful. Even worse was that she was very heavily sedated, and even at 7 Pm tonight, she didn't have full use of her body back yet.
She's also not eating or drinking. I want to give her some Torbugesic for pain, but with her still groggy from the sedation, I'm scared to. When I picked her up, I just held her. I didn't put her down for several hours. She's just been clinging to me. I even made a sling out of a scarf so I could carry her around close to me. (and she actually LIKED it)
She's still staying with my friend for the night, who has agreed to look after her for the night. She's separated from the other kitties but I'm still so very worried about my baby girl. We're leaving early in the morning to go back to Clarksville, and I'm hoping that she'll be alright. If she hasn't eaten by morning though, she will go right back to the vet before we leave.
I'm just worried that she had such a hard time coming back from the sedation. She's an older cat, but she fights so hard. The vet sedated her as soon as I got there because of her cage anxiety. I just wish this was all over and my baby girl was better again. I feel so awful, how could this have been the right thing to do?
I KNOW this was something she needed done. I KNOW that it couldn't have waited any longer. I KNOW that everything that could be done to make her comfortable has been. But all this KNOWLEDGE doesn't have any effect on my emotions.
Her tail is now bobbed to only 1 vertebrae. The vet said there was still enough muscle left that she should not have any problems with bowel movements. But the way it looks, the stitches, the raw edge... every time I look at her Nub it makes me just feel so awful. Even worse was that she was very heavily sedated, and even at 7 Pm tonight, she didn't have full use of her body back yet.
She's also not eating or drinking. I want to give her some Torbugesic for pain, but with her still groggy from the sedation, I'm scared to. When I picked her up, I just held her. I didn't put her down for several hours. She's just been clinging to me. I even made a sling out of a scarf so I could carry her around close to me. (and she actually LIKED it)
She's still staying with my friend for the night, who has agreed to look after her for the night. She's separated from the other kitties but I'm still so very worried about my baby girl. We're leaving early in the morning to go back to Clarksville, and I'm hoping that she'll be alright. If she hasn't eaten by morning though, she will go right back to the vet before we leave.
I'm just worried that she had such a hard time coming back from the sedation. She's an older cat, but she fights so hard. The vet sedated her as soon as I got there because of her cage anxiety. I just wish this was all over and my baby girl was better again. I feel so awful, how could this have been the right thing to do?