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I am so grateful to have found this site!!!
I am in the process of adopting 2 kittens. But I have severe anxiety and I see that I am in familiar territory. Over the past 15 years I have wanted a cat, but I moved flats almost every year so it was impractical and would have been so unfair on kitty.
So i decided to wait, 2 years ago I bought my own little townhouse with a garden.
I decided a cat would be a perfect companion.
I have filled in the adoption papers for a cat twice now, but have a panic attack at the last minute and pull out.
I always feel regret after the relief. About 2 months later I am searching again.
I found a beautiful kitten 2 days ago, and the rescue society has suggested that I take 2 kittens so that they can keep each other company.
Again the anxiety has kicked in and I am stressing about the next 10years and if I can cope with the change and adjustment, and it is so frustrating because I know my thoughts are completely irrational. Heres why:
I live in a cat filled complex, my neighbor got 2 kittens and I have known them since they were 6 months old, they are turning 2 years old in December, I am home most days, and they arrive at my door at 6am, they come in and i love them, give them water and if I have some snacks they will have that. Then they explore till 10am, and come back and find a place to sleep all day, till they go home at 6pm for dinner. So they are with me for 12 hours everyday.
My other neighbor had a 17year old boy, that decided their new kitten was to much for him so he moved in for 6months till he passed away last year. I fed him, and he stayed with me 24hrs a day till he died.
But i suppose in the above they are not mine, so the fear of commitment is eliminated.
Now that my papers are in, I feel sick with worry over if I am doing the right thing, and about the future, if I ever move or change my circumstances, even though I have no intention of doing so. I am sitting on my couch in the quiet of the evening, and imagining all my furniture being ruined, or kittens pooing on my bed, or coming home from work on the days I do work, and finding vomit. And if that is something I should deal with.
I have no idea if I should go through with an adoption or not. But I feel terrible about keeping applying and then backing out all the time. I read that perhaps I should meet the 2 kittens before I decide, so help ease my mind.
I am in the process of adopting 2 kittens. But I have severe anxiety and I see that I am in familiar territory. Over the past 15 years I have wanted a cat, but I moved flats almost every year so it was impractical and would have been so unfair on kitty.
So i decided to wait, 2 years ago I bought my own little townhouse with a garden.
I decided a cat would be a perfect companion.
I have filled in the adoption papers for a cat twice now, but have a panic attack at the last minute and pull out.
I always feel regret after the relief. About 2 months later I am searching again.
I found a beautiful kitten 2 days ago, and the rescue society has suggested that I take 2 kittens so that they can keep each other company.
Again the anxiety has kicked in and I am stressing about the next 10years and if I can cope with the change and adjustment, and it is so frustrating because I know my thoughts are completely irrational. Heres why:
I live in a cat filled complex, my neighbor got 2 kittens and I have known them since they were 6 months old, they are turning 2 years old in December, I am home most days, and they arrive at my door at 6am, they come in and i love them, give them water and if I have some snacks they will have that. Then they explore till 10am, and come back and find a place to sleep all day, till they go home at 6pm for dinner. So they are with me for 12 hours everyday.
My other neighbor had a 17year old boy, that decided their new kitten was to much for him so he moved in for 6months till he passed away last year. I fed him, and he stayed with me 24hrs a day till he died.
But i suppose in the above they are not mine, so the fear of commitment is eliminated.
Now that my papers are in, I feel sick with worry over if I am doing the right thing, and about the future, if I ever move or change my circumstances, even though I have no intention of doing so. I am sitting on my couch in the quiet of the evening, and imagining all my furniture being ruined, or kittens pooing on my bed, or coming home from work on the days I do work, and finding vomit. And if that is something I should deal with.
I have no idea if I should go through with an adoption or not. But I feel terrible about keeping applying and then backing out all the time. I read that perhaps I should meet the 2 kittens before I decide, so help ease my mind.
Glad you found us. Folks here will support/encourage/advise you on most every aspect of cat "parenting".
