it would totally not be cool if I finally get birth control, and I get pregnant. sooooo very bad. I mean, I have a steady boyfriend that I am most likely going to marry within the next year but still. I was irresponsible for so long, then I finally get around to going to plan parenthood for birth control and took a pregnancy test. It was negative but the chick said that it would not show if I got pregnant within the last two weeks. that was like 3 weeks ago. Jake, my boyfriend would be stressed out but happy. he wanted to marry me from the beginning but that was way too fast, now however I am wanting to get married. I want a small one but he seems to have this idea of a big wedding, and that would be what has been stopping me for a while. We both got sick last week(stuff in our throat, hard time breathing, fever, can't talk, that sorta thing) and now for the past few days pretty much the only thing that hasn't made me nauseous one way or another has been Jake and my kitten George. just thinking about food right now makes my stomach turn. it has been really hot and that makes me nauseous so that might be it but that doesn't account for everything. heat pretty much makes me lethargic and faintly nauseous when I look or think about food. now even drinking makes me feel sick. i haven't vomited... yet. I wish I had some bottled water, tap is disgusting. I can't use my period to gauge if I'm pregnant, my body doesn't like to be anything even in the same vicinity of normal or regular. i can't use my body or belly to gauge because I am fat and look like I have been pregnant since freshman year. this sucks. in about a week I come to the period part of the month with the pills and I think that even if I bleed I will go and get a pregnancy test done. I really hope I'm not pregnant.
Jake just lost his job, I haven't had any luck getting one, and now would just be a bad time. talk about luck running out.
anyway, I just wanted to talk/rant to someone other than Jake or my family. no need to reply, it would be nice, but it isn't necessary.
anyway, I just wanted to talk/rant to someone other than Jake or my family. no need to reply, it would be nice, but it isn't necessary.