Hi everyone. I truly wish that i was introducing myself and my cat under better circumstances, but right now i am in a really bad place and i just need to share with someone who might understand.
My cat's name is Pusi, which is basically "kitty" in norwegian, which is where i am currently living. He was a stray that i found outside my house back in September 2012. I usually feed strays around my house, and more often than not they are happy for the food, but tend to avoid me. Not so with Pusi, he was desperate to be friends. Against my better judgement i decided to adopt him, since he had no one else. You might wonder why i was reluctant to adopt him, but that stems from the fact that i had lost a cat a few years earlier, and another one a few years before that. Each experience ruined me completely. When i adopt a cat, i think of them as family, so losing one is every bit as devastating as losing an actual family member.
Everything was fine for a while, until one morning when he refused to go outside and didn't touch his breakfast. As mentioned, i've had cats before so i know a red flag when i see it. I took him to the vet, and got a diagnosis: FIV. I didn't even know that was a thing, so i was floored to say the least. This was just the first of many problems that poor Pusi would be forced to endure. FIV, chipped teeth from his time as a stray, diabetes and joint pain. The list just kept getting longer. Most people would have put him out of his misery, but i knew that despite all of these issues, Pusi was as lively as ever. We've had four fantastic years together, only interrupted whenever something came up with his health. Until now.
December has been an especially bad month for Pusi. First i noticed that he started to make a grinding noise when eating dry food, and he would frequently lose bits of it out of his mouth.The reason? Feline Odontoclastic Resorptive Lesions, or Tooth Resorption. He also started having small amounts of blood in his stool. I've taken him to the vet several times now, first for the teeth, and now for the blood. They've tested his blood, taken x-rays ,etc. And everything has come back without results. They have no idea what is causing the blood. The last dtich effort is to do an ultrasound, but the technician won't be back until next week,so i have to wait.
Meanwhile he is now eating and drinking less, and spends most of his time sleeping. Which isn't like him at all. I am scared that i might be losing him. I knew it probably wouldn't end well for him when he was first diagnosed with FIV, but we've come so far, and he has so much life still left in him. The thought that he might not be here much longer is breaking my heart. Every time i see him i get a lump in my throat, because i have to wonder: "Is this it? is this the time you won't be getting better?" I'm miserable at work, i'm miserable at home, and i can barely bring myself to do anything. The fact that it's christmas and everyone is so happy, only makes my misery that much worse. I just feel so lost right now.
My cat's name is Pusi, which is basically "kitty" in norwegian, which is where i am currently living. He was a stray that i found outside my house back in September 2012. I usually feed strays around my house, and more often than not they are happy for the food, but tend to avoid me. Not so with Pusi, he was desperate to be friends. Against my better judgement i decided to adopt him, since he had no one else. You might wonder why i was reluctant to adopt him, but that stems from the fact that i had lost a cat a few years earlier, and another one a few years before that. Each experience ruined me completely. When i adopt a cat, i think of them as family, so losing one is every bit as devastating as losing an actual family member.
Everything was fine for a while, until one morning when he refused to go outside and didn't touch his breakfast. As mentioned, i've had cats before so i know a red flag when i see it. I took him to the vet, and got a diagnosis: FIV. I didn't even know that was a thing, so i was floored to say the least. This was just the first of many problems that poor Pusi would be forced to endure. FIV, chipped teeth from his time as a stray, diabetes and joint pain. The list just kept getting longer. Most people would have put him out of his misery, but i knew that despite all of these issues, Pusi was as lively as ever. We've had four fantastic years together, only interrupted whenever something came up with his health. Until now.
December has been an especially bad month for Pusi. First i noticed that he started to make a grinding noise when eating dry food, and he would frequently lose bits of it out of his mouth.The reason? Feline Odontoclastic Resorptive Lesions, or Tooth Resorption. He also started having small amounts of blood in his stool. I've taken him to the vet several times now, first for the teeth, and now for the blood. They've tested his blood, taken x-rays ,etc. And everything has come back without results. They have no idea what is causing the blood. The last dtich effort is to do an ultrasound, but the technician won't be back until next week,so i have to wait.
Meanwhile he is now eating and drinking less, and spends most of his time sleeping. Which isn't like him at all. I am scared that i might be losing him. I knew it probably wouldn't end well for him when he was first diagnosed with FIV, but we've come so far, and he has so much life still left in him. The thought that he might not be here much longer is breaking my heart. Every time i see him i get a lump in my throat, because i have to wonder: "Is this it? is this the time you won't be getting better?" I'm miserable at work, i'm miserable at home, and i can barely bring myself to do anything. The fact that it's christmas and everyone is so happy, only makes my misery that much worse. I just feel so lost right now.