Ok. So I'm turning 30 in June. And I know it's not THAT old. But still I'm kinda freaking out about it. I know this sounds crazy but in the back of my mind, I never thought I'd make it to 30. This is not a new feeling. Been there for a long time. Don't ask me why. I don't know. But anyway, I think that might be part of why I'm freaking out. Now that it's 6 months away. I've got major anxiety going on here. Ever since 2009 started, I've felt SO uneasy. I've had this really bad feeling that something bad is going to happen this year. Am I crazy?? Oh crap, I'm turning 30 and I'm already losing my mind.
Now I've got a doctor's appointment (unrelated female problems) in the morning and I'm practically making myself sick here. I'm crying to people "he's going to give me bad news...what if I'm dying....wah wah", all that crap. Is this a normal "age decade changing" thing? Or am I just completely losing it here???