Several years ago I began updating on the feral colony my mom and I cared for in Indiana... Itâ€[emoji]8482[/emoji]s been almost 9 years since I first met Casper, the black ball of fluff that had been left behind by a neighbor. At first he was evasive, he was shy. But as time went on he started to trust us little by little… He brought us all the girls in the neighborhood, and one by one we had them “fixed†and they added to our now ever growing colony… When Casper got hurt in an attack of some kind we were finally able to catch him and get him neutered. He was ‘Ours†after that. When I moved to Vermont 5 years ago, knowing my mom would be moving here soon, I left Casper with her… Itâ€[emoji]8482[/emoji]s been two years since she moved up. Bringing our once feral colony to live here with her father as we cared for him in his old age.
And there is Casper… All grown up and scarred, his eyes tell the story of a cat three times his age, the adventures heâ€[emoji]8482[/emoji]s had…
We noticed the lump a couple of weeks ago… I should have taken him in… I should have been more concerned… but he was eating, drinking and using the box… When his appetite dropped last Saturday I made an emergency appointment for Monday morning, (I think itâ€[emoji]8482[/emoji]s odd that they call it an emergency appointment, if there is an emergency should I have to make an appointment?)
The vet chastised me, rightfully so for not bringing him in as soon as I noticed the lump… Heâ€[emoji]8482[/emoji]s on 2 antibiotics to see if the swelling will go down, his fever has broken, and he goes back to the vet on Friday.
I feel awful. What kind of horrible mommy am I? I should have taken him in sooner, I know I should have, if this is something that can be fixed that easily Iâ€[emoji]8482[/emoji]m a really awful person, I let him down… But if it isnâ€[emoji]8482[/emoji]t easily fixed, If it is cancer (which is my BIG fear) I hope he knows I would do anything to save him, to make it better, even if it means letting him go.
Iâ€[emoji]8482[/emoji]ve been with him for 3 days straight, took 2 days off work to be there with him… I hope he knows how much I love him. As I sit at work today writing this I can think of nothing else but his face, how he looks at me with such love, and follows me from room to room looking for a bigger, better treat… I need some major good vibes for him to get better... and for me... Because I havenâ€[emoji]8482[/emoji]t slept more than 2 hours a night since he got ill…..
And there is Casper… All grown up and scarred, his eyes tell the story of a cat three times his age, the adventures heâ€[emoji]8482[/emoji]s had…
We noticed the lump a couple of weeks ago… I should have taken him in… I should have been more concerned… but he was eating, drinking and using the box… When his appetite dropped last Saturday I made an emergency appointment for Monday morning, (I think itâ€[emoji]8482[/emoji]s odd that they call it an emergency appointment, if there is an emergency should I have to make an appointment?)
The vet chastised me, rightfully so for not bringing him in as soon as I noticed the lump… Heâ€[emoji]8482[/emoji]s on 2 antibiotics to see if the swelling will go down, his fever has broken, and he goes back to the vet on Friday.
I feel awful. What kind of horrible mommy am I? I should have taken him in sooner, I know I should have, if this is something that can be fixed that easily Iâ€[emoji]8482[/emoji]m a really awful person, I let him down… But if it isnâ€[emoji]8482[/emoji]t easily fixed, If it is cancer (which is my BIG fear) I hope he knows I would do anything to save him, to make it better, even if it means letting him go.
Iâ€[emoji]8482[/emoji]ve been with him for 3 days straight, took 2 days off work to be there with him… I hope he knows how much I love him. As I sit at work today writing this I can think of nothing else but his face, how he looks at me with such love, and follows me from room to room looking for a bigger, better treat… I need some major good vibes for him to get better... and for me... Because I havenâ€[emoji]8482[/emoji]t slept more than 2 hours a night since he got ill…..