If I can help one person, it is well worth it. I think just knowing someone has been there and survived, and is close by, helps tremendously. You have so much love to give.....I know it seems like an impossible mountain to climb, but you have many people who can help you. You are not alone in your grief.
As one who knows this grief, and took years to work through it, I know it is a personal undertaking, only you can get on with your own life, but it helps to know you can begin to heal. It will always hurt, I won't lie to you, but you will someday learn to live again. You must find something that makes you want to get up in the mornings, something that makes you feel needed and happy. I know for a long time I even resented my other cats for intruding in my grief, but they ended up being a lifeline, they forced me to care for them. And in the way cats have, they gave me a reason to want to live again because they love living in the now so very much. I saved their lives from the cold outdoors and they, in turn, saved me.....
As one who knows this grief, and took years to work through it, I know it is a personal undertaking, only you can get on with your own life, but it helps to know you can begin to heal. It will always hurt, I won't lie to you, but you will someday learn to live again. You must find something that makes you want to get up in the mornings, something that makes you feel needed and happy. I know for a long time I even resented my other cats for intruding in my grief, but they ended up being a lifeline, they forced me to care for them. And in the way cats have, they gave me a reason to want to live again because they love living in the now so very much. I saved their lives from the cold outdoors and they, in turn, saved me.....