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Thank you guys so much for such kindness! I am still having a hard time, as I have also just lost another kitten, Sparrow, that my hubby and I saved a little over a week ago...I went to two different vets because I wasn't satisfied with the first one, and then I let the second, more caring and genuine vet hospitalize her and everything, but she passed the following morning, despite all of the support and care they gave her through the night, bringing so much of the pain from Gravity back to the surface, along with grieving for her sweet life being lost as well.
I think of Gravity with so many smiles now, but it is usually still followed by tears. He was such a sweetheart and it is one of the hardest things I've had to try to get over. I miss him so much. The bond is indescribable and though I know it sounds silly to compare him to an actual human child to a lot of people, but my hubby and I will have a hard time conceiving when we do try, for I have severe PCOS that causes fertility complications...so I think I really held onto Gravity as my first baby, as crazy as that sounds. The bottle feeding, and every single little care he needed, I was there and so happy to do it. I was exhausted, but it was all so worth it. When my alarm clock would go off throughout the day and night, I would always jump out of bed with excitement, especially when he began doing so well those few days. And then he was gone.
I was finally able to go through my phone and watch some videos I took of him while he was healthy and thriving, like when he finally started getting a good grip on the bottle and would flail is little arms with excitement, when he began wobbling around so well and trying to keep his balance, such cute moments, but it started hurting so bad mid video and I realized it just wasn't time yet, but I am so glad that I have these things there waiting for me to cherish with smiles when I am ready.
I think of Gravity with so many smiles now, but it is usually still followed by tears. He was such a sweetheart and it is one of the hardest things I've had to try to get over. I miss him so much. The bond is indescribable and though I know it sounds silly to compare him to an actual human child to a lot of people, but my hubby and I will have a hard time conceiving when we do try, for I have severe PCOS that causes fertility complications...so I think I really held onto Gravity as my first baby, as crazy as that sounds. The bottle feeding, and every single little care he needed, I was there and so happy to do it. I was exhausted, but it was all so worth it. When my alarm clock would go off throughout the day and night, I would always jump out of bed with excitement, especially when he began doing so well those few days. And then he was gone.
I was finally able to go through my phone and watch some videos I took of him while he was healthy and thriving, like when he finally started getting a good grip on the bottle and would flail is little arms with excitement, when he began wobbling around so well and trying to keep his balance, such cute moments, but it started hurting so bad mid video and I realized it just wasn't time yet, but I am so glad that I have these things there waiting for me to cherish with smiles when I am ready.
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