Well... My step-mom may have cancer. I've known for a few days, but it wasn't until this morning that it actually hit me... Cancer... Mom... cancer... stepmom... I've lost one mom to cancer already, and I really hate to see my step-mom go as well. She's at peace with IF she does, and if it is her time. She just wants to be out of the pain she is in, and she wants to know what is causing the pain. They've done tests, but just waiting on results. I pray it isn't. I'm not prepaired to go through cancer with a mother figure a third time.
A few years ago a woman I was really close friends with, who was like a mother figure to me found out she had lung cancer. She didn't tell me for a little while, knowing how hard it was on me with cancer and my mom. She did finally tell me, and I just sat there for a couple hours crying and looking at her. She was so upset by my reaction, she held my hand and told me everything would be fine. It was, she passed away, and is no longer in pain. That wasn't what I wanted, but it happens. Some things are defianately out of our control.
Now... I sit trying to keep myself busy and not think about it. I feel cold and bad for not wanting to think about it. Not wanting to talk about it. It's unfair because I should be there, worrying with her... I just don't feel like I can be any help or strength for her. Last thing I need is her comforting me because I am so broken up. I'll wait to hear what IS going on, then I will react. I figure a few vibes if anyone has any left, is a good start. My step-sis is freaked out though. I don't blame her. I didn't want to loose my mom, and I don't want her to loose hers.
Thank you
Be safe.
A few years ago a woman I was really close friends with, who was like a mother figure to me found out she had lung cancer. She didn't tell me for a little while, knowing how hard it was on me with cancer and my mom. She did finally tell me, and I just sat there for a couple hours crying and looking at her. She was so upset by my reaction, she held my hand and told me everything would be fine. It was, she passed away, and is no longer in pain. That wasn't what I wanted, but it happens. Some things are defianately out of our control.
Now... I sit trying to keep myself busy and not think about it. I feel cold and bad for not wanting to think about it. Not wanting to talk about it. It's unfair because I should be there, worrying with her... I just don't feel like I can be any help or strength for her. Last thing I need is her comforting me because I am so broken up. I'll wait to hear what IS going on, then I will react. I figure a few vibes if anyone has any left, is a good start. My step-sis is freaked out though. I don't blame her. I didn't want to loose my mom, and I don't want her to loose hers.
Thank you
Be safe.