All of the October 3rd litter of kittens are gone to their new homes now.
There is no rustling of movement in the area where the toy basket is located, there are no 3 AM wild chases up and down the wooden floor hallway with bell balls ... I do not sense any longer the life force and extremely strong presence of the 5 little lives who touched me so profoundly just a bit over 3 months ago and have now moved on to touch the lives of those they chose to care for them. And choose they did, each and every one of them - I saw it with my own two eyes. One after another would climb right into the lap of the person who they knew was to be theirs and theirs alone.
They are all in fantastic homes. I couldn't have custom ordered better caregivers for them. I know this intellectually. But Lexus, their mother, is looking for them tonight, the first time I have witnessed her doing this since they began leaving and it brings tears to watch her. I don't know how to ease her. So I drink yet another cup of coffee, the 2nd pot now - smoke yet another cigarette, the second pack today, and try to stay awake to play with her ... she engages for a while, then looks again in all of the places they liked to gather. She calls to them and they don't come. She is confused and wants me to help her find them, but of course, I cannot. I tell her I miss them too and hope she understands. I am at a loss. And both of us feel very, very alone tonight.
~gf~
There is no rustling of movement in the area where the toy basket is located, there are no 3 AM wild chases up and down the wooden floor hallway with bell balls ... I do not sense any longer the life force and extremely strong presence of the 5 little lives who touched me so profoundly just a bit over 3 months ago and have now moved on to touch the lives of those they chose to care for them. And choose they did, each and every one of them - I saw it with my own two eyes. One after another would climb right into the lap of the person who they knew was to be theirs and theirs alone.
They are all in fantastic homes. I couldn't have custom ordered better caregivers for them. I know this intellectually. But Lexus, their mother, is looking for them tonight, the first time I have witnessed her doing this since they began leaving and it brings tears to watch her. I don't know how to ease her. So I drink yet another cup of coffee, the 2nd pot now - smoke yet another cigarette, the second pack today, and try to stay awake to play with her ... she engages for a while, then looks again in all of the places they liked to gather. She calls to them and they don't come. She is confused and wants me to help her find them, but of course, I cannot. I tell her I miss them too and hope she understands. I am at a loss. And both of us feel very, very alone tonight.
~gf~