To those that have followed this thread and have given me support. It is my gran memorial on Saturday just with close family and then on sunday we are have the funeral service. I think it just might be a tough weekend but I'll be strong.
It may well be a tough weekend -- but it may also be a wonderful one, as you celebrate your Gran's life and your love for her. Don't be any stronger than you need to be -- grieving is important. Be gentle with yourself, and know that we'll all be holding you and your family in our thoughts.