I just had a long talk with my cousin (my dad's twin's daughter) and I told her that I was sorry not keeping in touch. I told her that I was still upset over losing my dad and she understood. She was also very close to my dad. We exchanged email address and she told she that she wants to see pictures for my nephew. I feel good right now. I kinda lost touch with my dad's side of family when he died.. but I feel like I am getting it back.