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Hello. I am 15. I had a cat that died at a very young age due to congestive heart failure but I'm super depressed over how sudden he went. I was SO unbelievably busy this last month because of certain events taking place in my life. He died suddenly with no warning. I found him in a corner of the basement panting and crying so loudly. I never heard such a loud painful meow in my life. I was panicking so bad and my family and I rushed him to the vets. He was diagnosed with CHF and the vet guy wanted to put him down that night. It happened too sudden and I didn't want him to go like this so I picked him up and ran out the door. The vet gave my cat a lasix injection which reduces the liquid to help him breathe and then he gave my mom some pills to give him at home. The vet said he will go through this again but I took the chance anyway. Thankfully, he was back to normal for just one day and one night and I got to spend so much time with him. but then he started suffering again very bad. The worse part is he didn't want to go. He was trying so hard to puke but he couldn't (he thought he had to, but he didn't..it was the liquid in the lungs that was causing him to not breathe).
The symptoms of congestive heart failure are
Like I said, since I was so terribly busy this last month, he didn't get the attention that I usually give him. It's been 26 days since he passed away and I still cry every second he crosses my mind and have terrible nightmares literally every night. I am falling behind in school work and getting bad grades because I can't bring myself to think of anything else besides my cat. I am so stressed I am starting to get severe sleep paralysis every night and my heart is either beating really fast or skipping beats and I get super dizzy and my chest hurts really bad. I am so stressed I am breaking out severely with acne(never had a pimple in about 4 years) and I'm also getting cold sores because of the stress.
I also feel SO BAD how he was so afraid in his last hours. It was a rainy thunder storming night and he's so afraid of the thunder. He is also so afraid of going into the car. He had to suffer through a long car ride with all that hard falling rain and loud scary lightning. Then we brought him into a unfamiliar scary place that was SEVERELY bright. We laid him down on the ICE COLD HARD metal platform and a stranger came up to him, shaved his leg, and injected him and then he died. When the woman grabbed his leg to inject him, he was breathing SO HEAVY and fast and his face was making a stressed expression with foam dripping down his little chin while he was staring at the wall. After he passed, I grabbed his paw and his claws were all the way out. He suffered so bad. I can only think of his last moments. I can't even think of happy moments because I instantly feel guilty how I took him for granted in his last month of being alive because I was so busy.
I need to know, is my cat going somewhere better after this life? Do cats go to heaven? I know pet owners like to tell themselves that their animal is crossing rainbow bridge, but I need to know the truth. I believe in God but I don't know too much about where animals go. Cats are so affectionate and loving and intelligent like humans, so it just doesn't make sense if they didn't go somewhere after this life on earth. Also, what does a cat think when they are suffering in pain? While I was comforting him, he kept turning his head away and crying. Does he think I was letting him suffer? Does he think I didn't know he was in pain?
The symptoms of congestive heart failure are
- Difficult and rapid breathing
- Blue or gray gums or tongue
- Loss of appetite
- Weakness or lethargy (tiredness)
- Collapse
- Hind limb paralysis
Like I said, since I was so terribly busy this last month, he didn't get the attention that I usually give him. It's been 26 days since he passed away and I still cry every second he crosses my mind and have terrible nightmares literally every night. I am falling behind in school work and getting bad grades because I can't bring myself to think of anything else besides my cat. I am so stressed I am starting to get severe sleep paralysis every night and my heart is either beating really fast or skipping beats and I get super dizzy and my chest hurts really bad. I am so stressed I am breaking out severely with acne(never had a pimple in about 4 years) and I'm also getting cold sores because of the stress.
I also feel SO BAD how he was so afraid in his last hours. It was a rainy thunder storming night and he's so afraid of the thunder. He is also so afraid of going into the car. He had to suffer through a long car ride with all that hard falling rain and loud scary lightning. Then we brought him into a unfamiliar scary place that was SEVERELY bright. We laid him down on the ICE COLD HARD metal platform and a stranger came up to him, shaved his leg, and injected him and then he died. When the woman grabbed his leg to inject him, he was breathing SO HEAVY and fast and his face was making a stressed expression with foam dripping down his little chin while he was staring at the wall. After he passed, I grabbed his paw and his claws were all the way out. He suffered so bad. I can only think of his last moments. I can't even think of happy moments because I instantly feel guilty how I took him for granted in his last month of being alive because I was so busy.
I need to know, is my cat going somewhere better after this life? Do cats go to heaven? I know pet owners like to tell themselves that their animal is crossing rainbow bridge, but I need to know the truth. I believe in God but I don't know too much about where animals go. Cats are so affectionate and loving and intelligent like humans, so it just doesn't make sense if they didn't go somewhere after this life on earth. Also, what does a cat think when they are suffering in pain? While I was comforting him, he kept turning his head away and crying. Does he think I was letting him suffer? Does he think I didn't know he was in pain?