I lost my Gary Friday 03/03/17 to FeLV. I've lost very close family members and not had this hard of a time with the loss. He chose us 3 and 1/2 years ago. He showed up at our home as a kitten and wouldn't leave! We fell in love with him and took him to the vet for shots. We were told he had FeLV and that we should euthanize him, we refused. We took him to Auburn University they confirmed he had it and told use he would be sick and we should keep him indoors all the time. Gary was never sick, we took him for walks on his leash every day and walks in his stroller on the weekends. He would let me rock him like a baby and rub his little belly....He would lay on the kids in the mornings to keep them from getting up and ready for school! He would also walk in front of each of their heads as if counting them each night when they fell asleep before laying at their feet to sleep. He was truly our little angel. 2 weeks ago without any warning he was lethargic and throwing up. We took him to the vet and his blood count was so bad she recommended we go back to Auburn University. We tried blood transfusions and steroids and fluid removal from his chest cavity.....it was so hard...he was home for some of that time but he was at Auburn's hospital for the final week. I was there every day with him, we saw that nothing was going to work so we had decided that we were going to remove him from blood pressure medicine and let him go peacefully....we didn't get that chance he died before I could get to the hospital early Friday morning. The Doctor said it was peaceful and that she was there with him but I'm still full of guilt for not being there with my boy. We consulted with Louisiana State University, Cornell University, and several specialists....its so hard for me to accept that nothing could be done to help him. We buried Gary in a little casket full of pictures of all of us with him and some of his favorite toys.... I just feel so heartbroken, I've never felt so much pain in my life and honestly don't know how to cope with it. I can't stand to be in the house b/c everything reminds me of him.....just pulling up in the yard and not seeing him waiting in the window for me causing me to break down......