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After an almost 2 month battle, today I lost one of my best friends. Conker was diagnosed with FeLV and an unidentified mass in his lungs in early November. We were told he had days to live and we were devastated, but being the good boy he is, he didn't want us to worry and he made it a little over 6 weeks. Finally last night he showed us nothing was working anymore and we could see he was struggling.
So today we packed him up and took him on one last tour of our house, and a walk around the block in the fresh air. I'm choosing to have that as my last memory forever. Him looking up at us in wonder then back at all the vast outside.
I'm not sure how to live this new life without him. I'm sad but the only comfort I want is to feel him crawl over and plop down on top of me. Knowing I wont feel that again is overwhelming. I'm scared that in 10 years or 20 years I'll forget the little details about him. I want to remember his voice and his funny quirks forever. He was the most unique cat I've had and the shortest lived. I miss him so much already.
Conker:
7 years ago you found Jon and wouldn't leave until he took you in. I was so excited to meet you Conker, I loved any cat I could get my hands on, but as fate would have it, you were the one cat I didn't fall in love with right away. You were loud and pushy, you didn't give me any space and you wouldn't stop dragging everything you could find across the house. I just didn't know how to feel about you. Then we moved in together, and my sweet boy Pep came with. He was my little soulmate and I was worried you would fight. But instead you fell in love with him, despite him hissing in your face you followed him endlessly until he gave up trying to get away from you. You became his best friend. And just like that you melted my heart and I fell in love with you. I suddenly couldn't fathom why I had felt standoffish with you, you had so much love in you. I let myself get to know you and you were so sweet. I was absolutely obsessed with you. I never thought I could love another cat as much as Pep, boy was I wrong. Pep is my soulmate kitty but you were the love of my life kitty. I don't think I can ever find someone as pure, funny, absolutely weird and intelligent as you my love. I will miss you until the end of time Conker. I'm so happy we got 7 healthy years with you. I hope you come back to us in some form, our little family will never be the same without you.
So today we packed him up and took him on one last tour of our house, and a walk around the block in the fresh air. I'm choosing to have that as my last memory forever. Him looking up at us in wonder then back at all the vast outside.
I'm not sure how to live this new life without him. I'm sad but the only comfort I want is to feel him crawl over and plop down on top of me. Knowing I wont feel that again is overwhelming. I'm scared that in 10 years or 20 years I'll forget the little details about him. I want to remember his voice and his funny quirks forever. He was the most unique cat I've had and the shortest lived. I miss him so much already.
Conker:
7 years ago you found Jon and wouldn't leave until he took you in. I was so excited to meet you Conker, I loved any cat I could get my hands on, but as fate would have it, you were the one cat I didn't fall in love with right away. You were loud and pushy, you didn't give me any space and you wouldn't stop dragging everything you could find across the house. I just didn't know how to feel about you. Then we moved in together, and my sweet boy Pep came with. He was my little soulmate and I was worried you would fight. But instead you fell in love with him, despite him hissing in your face you followed him endlessly until he gave up trying to get away from you. You became his best friend. And just like that you melted my heart and I fell in love with you. I suddenly couldn't fathom why I had felt standoffish with you, you had so much love in you. I let myself get to know you and you were so sweet. I was absolutely obsessed with you. I never thought I could love another cat as much as Pep, boy was I wrong. Pep is my soulmate kitty but you were the love of my life kitty. I don't think I can ever find someone as pure, funny, absolutely weird and intelligent as you my love. I will miss you until the end of time Conker. I'm so happy we got 7 healthy years with you. I hope you come back to us in some form, our little family will never be the same without you.